i need some new effing friends ( Read more... )

so i came to a realization ( Read more... )

i hadn't done it since last febuary.

i made a goal not to do it for a year.

but i couldn't take it anymore.

I'M A CONTROL FREAKKKKK.

i haven't cried in 3 months

i hate crying. i'm afraid of losing CONTROL and not being able to stop.

i really thought this would be the year...

wow, merritt, you can't do anything.

don't fight it... fix it ( Read more... )

so i always update my lj alot when i'm like doing super bad ( Read more... )

this depression is never ending.
it sucks because...
there's no reason for me to be sad.
grades are ok, friends are AMAZING, plans are steady, losing weight still...

whats up, merritt?

i want you... i want you so bad its drivin me mad...

it's drivin me mad...

this week has been horrible ( Read more... )

this weekend was amazing ( Read more... )

i woke up yesterday at 5:31 am and said ( Read more... )

sunday was the weirdest day of my life ( Read more... )