arggg im soo fing screwed up...i fall for ryan and then i decide that it's not time for ryan and i b/c daniel totaly swept me off my feet..i really think he's for me....i know it's early but i've alway looked for someone like him...i wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with someone like him.. allen came over the other night and it was great ( Read more... )

blah i've been soo utterly bored... my summer has been the worst summer of all time by far except i've met some people this summer that have changed my perspectives so besides not being able to hang out and stuff it's been "decient" dad finalized that he is going to get me a car im soo excited!!i feel awefull for who i have to be... the bearer of ( Read more... )

ehhh it's been a little while things have been super bussy! i hardly get to talk to ryan anymore cause he works a ton and so do i...but it's ok things will work out some how. i hardly get to talkto sean anymore it's like he doesn't even want to talk to me anymore, he's my best freind and im not about to let him go that easy. i'll never let him go ( Read more... )

god this summer has been soo f-ing boring blah blah blah...i want to see ryan tommorro he said he had a suprise up his sleeve...i've been soo bored doing nuthin but sleeping mostly... i've not really hung out with anyone ...it's weird not being with sean everyday.. i miss him more and more ...but he's not comfortable with us being friends i guess i ( Read more... )

in response to comment in last journal entry-->I guess this is your way of telling me that you made out with him..because i guess it was to hard for you to do to my face..well again i'm hurt by something you didn't tell me even tho i said i would never come to this site again you knew i would so thats most likly why you post your last entry..it ( Read more... )

alot has has happened i havn't entered a new entry latley .. kinda been lazy i started to enter a new one when ifound out about ryan's girlfreind... yah u didn't miss read... this is how is went down lady's ( Read more... )

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im really super depressed right now i have no one to talk to ..sean (my bestfriend) hates me and i really dont have anyone else eric was a help kinda he came over and talked to me...but he doesn't have his cell phonei've finaly realized how close sean and i were and i totaly regret promising him that i would date HIM when i was ready ....i broke ( Read more... )

blah im soo bored heh i don't go into work till 6 tonight and im wondering how sean will be i knew that he would read my journla even though he blocked it and said he wouldnt ever read it agian...he has to know what im thinking inside my head i guess i dont know...yahn.... my cat is a little beter but i found something wrong with hrer foot it's ( Read more... )

today was cool i didn't go into work till about 11 and the new dude named charles was working today... he's kinda ok... but man is he weird and way too polite heh... he's like fuckin right out of pleasantville or something heheh...sean's a little more decient now arfter he finaly realized what an ass he was being to me...i don't work till 6pm ( Read more... )