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嫌ってるフリしたのは 全部嘘だったの最初の夜 港のキスとてもうれしかった。私の役目はあなたと彼女をつなぐ事…最後だから 最後だから伝えたかった胸の想い本当は 本当は届けたかったコトバあなたが好き。おしゃべりなくせになぜかうまく話せないよ好きだった街も今は哀しい色に染まってく。いつでも彼女のコトバを伝えていたけれど…言えなかった 言えなかった秘密の恋をそっと隠して誰よりも 誰よりも近い場所にいたのに遠く離れてた…わたしだけの わたしだけの秘密の恋をそっと隠して誰よりも 誰よりも近い場所にいたのに…最後だから 最後だから伝えたかった胸の想い本当は 本当は届けたかったコトバ、「あなたが好き」。

the art of pursuasion;; i shouldn't need to convince myself...

how many times do we watch it crumble? the coming is all the same.

the falling was fast; the fading was faster.

after 10 hours of studying for japanese, i decided to take a walk.
visiting friends in the dorms - bad idea.
bad bad bad idea.
i fell down the stairs - after missing three steps.
and then-
i ran into the door.
i thought i had turned the handle. apparently not.
oh clumsy clutzy me.

i still can't help but feel stressed about the exam i have on tuesday.
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it was a devastating mistake.
the fine line of love and hate is timidly being danced upon.
how much do you care?
not enough to alleviate the pain you have caused me.
not enough.
never enough.
the illusion of friendship and love has shattered,
leaving me with mere fragments that i cling to,
cutting deeper as my grasp tightens in desperation.
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rainy days make me think of washington.
&when i think of washington i feel sad.
michigan will never compare.
but maybe japan will. ♥
oh how i can't wait.

some days are not meant to be terribly sanguine.
this is yet another one of them.

i'm tired of being the only one willing to work at communicating.
i'm tired of avoiders. confrontations are necessary for communication.
deal with it. it's part of life.
commitment to any relationship requires communication and involvement.
i don't really see it and i'm ( Read more... )

failure comes in many forms.
this weekend's form: procrastination.
watched tv, went out with friends -- generally all around lazy.

spent all of monday night attempting to cram information into my brain.
so. not. fun. i used to be so good at it.
not so much anymore...
1 hour of sleep and still.
i'm positive i won't receive a grade any higher than a C.
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how to disguise hate with love,
fear with trust,
anger with laughter.

aggression / competitive behavior is unacceptable.
please stop talking & grow up.
please please please.
if i cared about you, i'd say this to your face.
i don't. {{not today}}

found a long-lost friend today,
and--
reminisced about the past.

maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

procrastinating should not be this easy.
so much to do, so little motivation to do it.

"宿題をやりなさい。"

today i...
-tripped and fell into my closet.
-was given the brush-off by a good friend.
-almost tripped down the stairs in the science building.
-fell asleep in psych class.
-had a TB test.
-thought about him in pe class.
-walked walked walked all over campus.
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