everyday. i always think about you. both of you. sometimes i feel like i didn't appreciate you enough while you were here. i should have spent more time with you and now i can't. i hate it. i hate that i don't have you to talk to. i hate that i can't hug you. i hate that i don't get to hear your laugh or see your smile. i want that music video so ( Read more... )

has been the best week i've had in the past year and a half. FINALLY. :-)

i think it is going to be by far the worst ever. AWESOME.

my laptop is at toshiba getting fixed. it really sucks. its been gone for like 3 weeks. i kinda really miss it. Nicole hates me lately. for random recently decided reasons. sometimes she's so mean i can't stand it. i don't know how anyone could be that mean. i feel so bad when i get mean ( Read more... )

today is one of those days i just feel really broken. and like everything is completely wrong. i don't know how my life got so twisted that this is the point im at, but i don't like it. it would be really awesome if everything was right again.

you ever put your whole heart into something for it not to turn out? and then you have this horrible because it didn't go how you wanted it to. i did. just once. and it didn't go well. so now i always shy away. i feel like i fall short of what i could do and who i could be a lot. but i tell myself it's ok. im convinced it's better to only put ( Read more... )

so this summer i have been having a lot of fun, but everything is still pretty sucky at the same time. by friday i'll have worked 20 out of the past 21 days. lots of working. really tiring. i went to the beach today with Kim Nicole and Danielle. we had a lot of fun. i go to cancun in like a week with my family and Danielle. i seriously can not wait ( Read more... )

another let down. big surprise.
i miss you everyday T. <3
i wish you were here.

summer is going pretty sweet.
OCM was amazing.
i cant wait for cancun.
for the next 3 weeks work is going to take over my life.
i like money though so it's kind of ok.

so the past month things have been getting better. today things were great. if my year is like today was it will be amazing, and my bad year is deffinatly over and done with. my favorite present was words. from amc. he told me he's going to stop being such a sucky best friend and get things back to how we used to be. when we actually talked. and ( Read more... )