park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.

i slept twelve hours. it was great. i feel better just knowing i let myself sleep that long. i only work today, wednesday, and friday. and i am off until next friday. how much does that rule? i can't wait. i am so behind in school. i am going to have so much homework to accomplish. plus i have time off so i can do it when i actually want to do it, ( Read more... )

you sit there in your heartache
waiting on some beautiful boy
to save you from your old ways
you play forgiveness
watch it now here he comes

day one:
mom - are you coming over for dinner tonight?
me - what are you cooking?
mom - steak.
day two:
as usual, i stopped at the westchase publix to get lunch before going to work. i am thinking, vegetable soup is a good idea. first ingredient: CHICKEN stock.
i wish i could have seen the look on my own face.

it's days like these that a package in the mail makes everything better. i woke up in a pathetic, i lack self-worth mood. depressed and feeling emotions i haven't felt in months. my state of mind was the same all day, i had to leave work early because i couldn't compose myself enough to stay. my eyes still burn from all the crying i did. when i got ( Read more... )

eating is becoming more of a chore these days than anything. throw in the fact that i am not allowed to have meat. i'm probably going to disappear. i got to weigh myself yesterday and i was at 105. weird, cause i am not even trying anymore.

hello, vegetarianism.

jen, you were beautiful. i am so proud of you. thank you for inviting me to your show. i hope you sold more pieces after i left! <3.

you'll never see the courage i know
it's color's richness won't appear within your view
i'll never glow the way that you glow
your presence dominates the judgements made on you

why is it when you want something, it's impossible to find? even when you are willing to pay anything for it. just to save yourself the misery of having to look. well, i prevailed and i admit it, i got it at wal-mart. it's so hard to stay from it, when they're the only ones who know what's up. seriously. i'm just glad that is over.