hmm it's awfully wierd and awfully gay and crap.It's wierd 'cause like everyone else seems to be getting on with things which is the best thing to do..but like I can't. Unless I'm with him, but it's not like I was always with him. I don't know. Maybe I'm just clingy or something 'cause I don't think he misses me all that much not that I'd expect ( Read more... )

Bleurgh. Tonight's been somewhat surreal. I don't really know how to act.. it's wierd. If I could help, I would. But I think everytime I do I'm just making things worse. Bleurgh ( Read more... )

I don't know why I even borther with this thing, it's kinda comforting though. And noone reads it, so it's alright I guess. Like talking to myself :\
Anyhoo, not long now 'til I see kieran and go to london with my bootiful rhys. I can't wait to huggle kieran, except he's tall so it's gonna be hard trying to hug him. Arghh.. so excited. :D
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Maybe I'm reading too mucn into without realising, maybe it's all my fault.. maybe me blaming you for all this mess is completely wrong. Well it is, but as everyone keepps saying it's easier to get over something when you have someone to bame ( Read more... )

I can't believe it, metallica are playingi n wembley, and I don't get paid for 9 days. I'd sell my soul to go see them, or atleast all my belongings.
ARGHHHH.
LAME LAME LAME.

:( someone pity me and lend me £45?
No.
ok :'(

Ok so here's how it' probably gonna end up, bad feelings between me and everyone. Me just locking myself in my room or fucking off all the time. First everyone gets pissed off, eventually everyone welcomes the fact I'm not around. Everyone gets over it and live happily ever after, I feel like a dick for being so lame, but eventually getover myself ( Read more... )

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that I am weightless.
And in this moment I am happy
Happy

x

I dunno, I feel fine now. Kinda. Not really, but talking helped me. I just wish there was a book of answers for everything that's happend and how I'm feel at the moment. The main thing that made me feel at home, but now I just feel homeless, it sounds awful I know.. the people here are amazing and are my family, but certain things happen and you ( Read more... )

Bleurgh I hate welsh bac. The most pointless lesson ever. BLEURGH BLEURGH BLEURGH. Now we're going to albany. Whoop de fucking doo. Fag time xx

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