I don't know why I decided to post an entry on here, I guess it's because the people it may affect won't see it,anyone who matters probably won't see it, it's not like a confession or anything. I don't know. I walked to college this morning, after crying myself to sleep last night (gay I know) and trying my hardest to tell rhys how I'm feeling, I ( Read more... )

Gots welsh bac at the moment, so I'm really bored. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY RHYSIE! He's 20 now which is wierd.. but he's coote ( Read more... )

Safe. Yea I'm feeling good 'bout college at the moment, I know I haven't been back long but still I feel like this year is going to be a lot different and better. Except for the fact that lee isn't going to be here anymore. I know I'll see him all the time, but not as much as I do now. And it won't be the same. Bleh. I don't know.. it's lame. But ( Read more... )

Bleurgh. Feeling a bit pooey today.. not as in a hungover way or anything, just I don't know. Looking back over the time I wasted being sad about a load of friends that weren't really friends. I don't know, maybe I should have put the attention on what matters, like my real friends, I don't have many, I could count them on one hand.. but they mean ( Read more... )

Yea, got me flat. It's really nice. Took a lot of hard work and money.. but it's getting there. It feels like home, I actually think I can stay there long term. I'm fed up of shifting around, I wanna stay there for a while. Be settled. It's really nice chilling out with gez and rhys in the nights aswell.. and cuddling with rhys all night, and ( Read more... )

So pissed off right now. I may aswell be fucking invisible. I'd rather be invisible than one minuite be talked to like a piece of shit.. and then ignored. For doign nothing. I hate the fucking excuse, "I'm tired." and no fucking appology ( Read more... )

Ahh it begins. I think, I know it sounds wierd, but someone just keeps showing me signs, of where I went wrong. Ha. Very wrong. Like over a year ago.. and that's where it all began.. I don't know. It only takes someone signing into fucking msn and brain goes on a mad one. I don't know. I don't even think I really know what I want anymore.. Atleast ( Read more... )

Everything's gone wrong. Everything. It's well lame. And some people are amazingly pathetic. So much for friends. I obviously don't actually have any real friends.. if they are real friends, then fucking hell, I'd rather be a loner ( Read more... )

Yea I'm really thinking about dropping out of college for the last few months because I never go, I@m gonna fail like a hoe, and I just keep fucking up. If I keep going, I'll keep seeing people that make my head hurt ( Read more... )

Yes, you silly little whore. I'd kill you if it wasn't a crime. Look at yourself, you are a stoopid silly cow and you just fuck up everything good in your life. Take some time out and get your life sorted you silly moo ( Read more... )