im having a shitty day.
I feel alone
I feel Very unwanted.
I feel rejected and sad and alone.

so portland life is okay i suppose. My appartment is cute as hell, and so is my new puppy beau. He is an 11 week old siberian husky. with chocolate brown and white fur and bright blue eyes. Hes a little trouble maker tho. I spent all of today cleaning up his poop and taking him to the vet. he and I start puppy classes on tuesday. the only real ( Read more... )

alright, so i thought i'd give everyone a gosh darn decent entry. So. a week from thursday I move. And apparently there are a few people who really dont want me to go ( Read more... )

well. its 12:43. I had such a great day today, well technicly yesterday. starting from 10 am to now I've been so giddy..
I'm moving to portland next week. will u miss me? please come visit. *mwah*

So in less than a month as most of you know I will be moving to Portland Oregon. Yep. May 5th I'll be packing a minivan and driving with my mommy to oregon. I have a way cute appartment. its at the corner stone appartments. if you want to see it go to www.cornerstoneaptsportland.com if you go under the room designs my appartment is C2. which is an ( Read more... )

So. I've finally been blessed with a week where I have 3 days off instead of 2. And on my second day off now. I'm god damn sick.. Hopefully I'll be better by tomorrow because I'm doing another seminar for the pedia health office for makeup. My birthday is 3 months from today. I'm so excited, I'll finally be 18. I can finally go out to clubs with ( Read more... )

well hello there? has it been long?! oh I havent noticed. perhaps thats because i've gone insane. yes folks. insane. working full time has driven me off my rocker.lets see. a brief update on the world of renate ( Read more... )

okay so im visible now ( Read more... )

So tell me how crazy relationships are eh? Supposidly I'm not single. He says he really just cant be with out me. that we'll make it work, which of course is what I'd like too. I just hope it works. Tomarrows our anaversary. I'm sending him a little letter/something. its going to be lovely. anyway.. as i said I just hope everything works out for ( Read more... )

So its sad but heres the finalized plan as of like 2 am yesterday. after I leave portland today. we arnt going to talk untill wednesday, which is our anaversary. then we are going to do one of two things. if we miss each other, decide that this really is love and its worth working for. then we will start over, he'll have to woo me again, you know ( Read more... )