Everything feels fake. My life doesn't seem real. Years ago, when I was looking toward the future, this isn't at all what I expected. Things aren't bad, no things are very good, but I never thought I'd be ( Read more... )

Live journal is the same age as me.

That feels strange.

I'm going back to school. It doesn't even feel real to me. In my head, I keep telling myself I better keep looking for new job, but then suddenly I have to remind myself that I am FREE ( Read more... )

so, thoughts ( Read more... )

Okay. Enough. My friend Courtney is a wack job. Now I have been friends with this girl for almost 9 years. She seems to forget that I can look at her and tell exactly what she is feeling. Anyway. Since she started hanging out with these dumb sluts from work, it seems as if she has been avoiding me. She CLAIMS its just easier for her to hang out ( Read more... )

I am a simple Humanoid. I am growing older, and becoming less of a product and more of a lone soldier. I no longer yearn for the companionship of a male friend. I'll explain in detail why. I've come to some what of a conclusion that it is not so much natural to gravitate toward men, as it is a sign of insecurity. I have been spending a lot of time ( Read more... )

So here's what's strange. I've begun to notice a complete connection between, well, almost everything. Sometimes it's so strange and almost scary that I must sit back, and take it all in before I fully try to understand it. It seems as though I could finish a complete stranger's sentence before he even gets half way. It seems as if the last word ( Read more... )

Saturday night was the very first night of my weekend. Work went perfect. My bosses gave me tickets to the Senior Citizens Beauty Pageant. I was actually pretty excited about it, but of course the only person I could have a good time with, was too busy buying clothes. While I was patiently waiting, my dealer THOUGHTFULLY called me giving me a ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up at 8. Took a shower, yadda yadda. I left for work and there was a HUGE wreck on the corner of Monte Sano, and Walton Way. 4 cars, AT LEAST, all totaled, 3 cop cars, 2 ambulances, and a fire truck. I didn't get to see exactly what happened, but I did have to turn around because I forgot my shirt. I called my mom to come out ( Read more... )

Yesterday I woke up pretty early and cleaned up around the house. After that, I was pretty bored, so I drove to the gas station and got 2 blunt wraps. (they ALWAYS card me, and I swear EVERY TIME some random guy is always like "aren't you a little too young to be buying that stuff?". EVERY TIME. I'm 19, fuck off.) I always get two blunt wraps ( Read more... )