long ago i was told i was on the innermost level of someone's concentric heart chart. and i just wish i felt like that was still true ( Read more... )

sometimes it's like i'm trying so hard to fit into a group i know i'll never be a part of and whenever i manage to get close i'm really only intruding...

I wish I didn't have to beg for or steal from people a small amount of what they so willingly give to others in abundance. I always feel like I come in second place and I wish I didn't because I know I don't. Or maybe I do ( Read more... )

if i could lose my virginity again, it would be with john vanderslice's music playing all around me...

I like how i go to a friend for support and hear "you're wasting your degree." nice. thanks a lot. though it's probably better than looking for support and finding no response at all ( Read more... )

I can't remember why I wanted to go into nursing. I'm not sure I ever did. I think I realized this at one point of time and debated changing my major. But I worked so hard to even get into the program and I didn't want to just quit and regret it later. And, in a weird way, even though I know in my heart that nursing won't make me happy, I know I ( Read more... )

I wish my mom could be happy. In general and not jsut with me. I worry about her and that builds up a lot after almost 4 years and it's getting harder to hold it all in... :-(

Here it is. My other journal. And if you know me by my other name (mysticirishwolf), congratualtions you found me. Unfortunately though, I'm 10 steps ahead of you and most of my entries on here are, in fact, private. As they have been for almost 2 years... so no peaking into my private thoughts today I'm afraid...

But I did find you a pretty picture... :-)


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