Wow.  I am completely overwhelemed.  I need a break, I need to breathe.  I am too busy.  I can't handle everything.  So many papers, so much to study.  I just went to my first day of work and I don't know if I can handle this.  I feel tired, exhausted, even.  Bible study, church, essay, exam, work, friends, family.  I feel so strange.  Sort of ( Read more... )

No one really existed after that.  I remember something about crying, laughing maybe, praying, singing, and screaming.  But, for the most part, we hardly were.  I was rarely aware of my conciousness outside of the seldom memory that would enter my head involuntarily.  Incomplete memories.  Random words, spoken and written, it didn't mean anything, ( Read more... )

And when I think about people love and hurt and trust and pain and life and crying and laughing,
I hope this is not in heaven.
I hope it is God.

So lock your elbows up over your head close your eyes spin around hold your breath open your mouth breathe out open your lungs drop your arms fall down hold your head open your eyes look at the sky your'e ( Read more... )

Make someone feel something.
Today!

Like a good feeling on a bad day. Like a parking lot on Sunday when you're breathing fast from running or reaching high to catch her when she's falling from a tree. Or a tablecloth with red dots used to wrap a ring your mom lost, you lost your mind and fell from the building by the sea.

There is exchange.
This means that idle time between emptiness and happiness is inevitable.
We're throwing people around.
Filling up holes.
Or just spaces that have always been there.
And sometimes it feels good.
But mostly it feels bad.
Especially in the afternoon.
Everything sounds like a telephone.
Especially in the afternoon.

Dear Child,

We will be alright.
Isn't it wonderful?
No matter what.
Oh my God!
It's perfect.

The only consistency is inconsistency.

Today I am thankful for interesting friends.

Not everyone is so lucky.

And for my life, sort of.
A handful is better than a hand empty, I say.

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