bailey died today ( Read more... )

i moved back home. it feels so good to have a place of comfort again. finally to have a place to move around and decorate ( Read more... )

i am thankful for my family espically my mom.
for my friends, the ones who truly care for me.
for the fact that i have food in my cupboards and warm clothes on my back.
for all the opportunities that have been granted to me.

but most of all i am thankful to be alive, and i am thankful that matts life wasn't tragically taken away from him.

10-28-2008, 7:30 AM my house is going to be demolished to the ground. everyone is telling me that this is exciting but once again i want to cry. tomorrow i am going to watch my whole past crush and cave into to the ground. the house that they are going to build us is going to be wonderful and beautiful but it will always just be a house. i dont ( Read more... )

i am the sadest/ angriest/ most upset then i have ever been in my life. everything is fucked up and im sick of not being good enough for anyone. i am so pissed off, i never thought things would escalate to this. i feel so alone. i cry all the time because people use me and then they feel it necessary to just drop me on my ass like im an old toy ( Read more... )

 you dont know how great you have it until you lose everything. we all complain so much that the things we have are pieces of shit... they dont work properly... they arnt good enough or fast enough or powerful enough. but none of that matters in the end. once you lose it all in a matter of minutes, once you watch it all waste away... none of that ( Read more... )

 heyy i went on vacation.... it was fun.... no one noticed woo hoo

 i am so bored!!! i am waiting to see what jenna and michelle do at midnight for my birthday. i told them that i didnt want anything but to hang out with a bunch of people so that means all of you!!!!! lets go have some fun =]

my brother wants to throw me a party but i figure only a few people would end up coming........ thats no fun =/

~FiN~

 so friday i want to a party and i had more fun than i ever have before. but the point of this post is not the events of the party and the amazing situations i got myself into, but the fact that i screwed up my whole schedule. 
on friday night at aroung 11:30 i ate a quesadilla to be safe for the events to follow. then for the rest of the night i ( Read more... )

ahhhh hhhhhh fuck this im always looking for more. this shit that happens to me is amazing but i always want just alittle more.

~FiN~