it's not like i don't know who i am. i do. i like the person i've become over the years. i know that this isn't all there is planned for me. i believe that everything happens for a reason. i believe that it was the right decision. i can tell myself all these things over and over. but then there's days when it still doesn't help. and i wish i could ( Read more... )

its been a good summer. a ridiculously good summer. mainly just for the past two weeks. ive forgotten what its like to be single. i think i may have even forgotten how im supposed to act. god knows he hasnt. its just weird to go from girlfriend mode to single mode i suppose. other than that, all is well. i move into my apartment in a couple weeks ( Read more... )

well, my first year of college is over in about 2 weeks. it still feels all so surreal to me. i still remember what i wore to school the first day in 7th grade. growing up is just odd in itself. im still not sure if i'll ever get used to the fact that im completely on my own now ( Read more... )

i actually don't plan on continuously writing in this. im not even going to make a post about having written a new entry. you know how sometimes you're just in the mood to write out your thoughts. i never thought i would miss high school as much as i do. i guess its not really high school. just the familiarilty of it. everything's new here. friends ( Read more... )

so this will be my last lj. i figure morning after graduating would be a great culmination of the three-ish years of the livejournal. plus im going to college and i need to grow up ( Read more... )

prom was amazing. i couldn't have asked for a better time or a better group. ah, i wish i could just put into words how great the weekend was but it wouldn't do it justice. but the highlight had to be "evie get back in your pokeball". or if i knew what "hey they really are in the bushes" meant, maybe that would be. or maybe it would be matteo ( Read more... )

so it's all pretty much upon us. a huge milestone that we have to cross whether we want to or not ( Read more... )

i wish i could just drive all the time and listen to music. theres something about being alone with the windows down and that song, your singing along and in that moment, nothing matters. and you just smile because your life is perfect. or when your running and your sweating and you get so tired, but you can't stop. and finally when you stop and ( Read more... )

attention people who do not know me: stop stalking my livejournal. really, its not that interesting.

so there's like 38 days and counting until graduation. im so beyond ready to get out of highschool and go to college. really, this is the most excited i've been for something in a long time.

my softball team is ridiculous. half of the people on my ( Read more... )

i had a sweet weekend. cinco de mayo was pretty much awesome, although us white folk totally take advantage of a mexican holiday that the mexicans don't even really care about. if you ever want to get completely wasted, just go to el parian. apparently everyone looks 21 to them. and me, ev, and kel had such style with our cups and umbrella straws. ( Read more... )