sometimes i just wish you could understand. but i suppose it would just be a waste of breath and time to explain. so nevermind. i am sorry though.. even if you dont believe me, it is true.

everytime i look at their picture i think to myself..
if only i could compare....

i hate my mother's boyfriend and i hope he dies in a plane crash. or at least gets paralized from the neck down.. or brain dead... either or, he can kiss my ass!

finally we are getting out of our apartment. things should get better now. yay
tommorow is my grandmother's funeral. i wish i could be there. i feel i am happy for her more than sad now. she is in peace now. but i do miss her. yet, i can only smile.
i love you Happy! rip

more tatts and piercings.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAFFY!!!!!!

sorry stacey i copied you....
lol

i am scared. i do not know where garrett is right now. he has been gone for a while and i have no phone or way to contact him. i hope he comes home soon. dammit! i knew i should have just gotten up and went with him. i dont know what to do.

life just plain out sucks sometimes. things will be better soon. i just need to focus on the perks. i am glad i have someone to stand by me during this stressful time.<3

yeh, about my grandmother. i don't care to talk about it. it only makes things worse. i am a fucking wreck and i cant fix myself. i have been pretty strong so far but i feel like im gonna flip out . i feel bad that garrett has to put up with me like this. i hate the fact that i am weak. i mean i am trying.. but it is soo hard. so nobody mention ( Read more... )

i am still awake and probably will be until late tonight..im not really sleepy, ive just been doing shizz and whatnot. keepin myself busy. the time now is 1:40.. lets see if i am still awake when i update again.. hmmm...

to be continued.....