Receiving a "congratulations" message from my long-lost-sister-in-law was enough of a shocker that I didn't respond to it...at all. I guess I wasn't ready to deal with the family I put away many years ago because I was told to. That was when I didn't believe everything that came out of my parent's mouth, yet I kept my distance from what they deemed ( Read more... )

I've realized why it's so easy for me to remove myself from the "human race."
I am like Martin in Candide. I am very much disconnected from the pulsing passions of being human. I am no activist, no believer of faith, luck, or justice, no worshiper of any gods, and no philosopher of the indivdual merit of my existance. My battles begin and end in ( Read more... )

Sometimes I catch myself, blissfully going through the motions of waking up, putting on clothes, eating, going about my day, without the slightest idea that I am a living, animal. Because it's moments like this right now that I can taste the flavor of reality at my fingertips and tastebuds. It's as if I am sitting infront of the flame watching my ( Read more... )

Somehow, you're still hurting me ( Read more... )

Mama, I love your daughter.

- A

There's so much more to destruction than meets the eyes ( Read more... )

Someone once told me that the only person you can control, is yourself.

So that's what I am doing.

Alisa. 

Sometimes I go whole days without asking myself "why", but today isn't one of those days. 
I asked myself why I wasn't happy anymore with the places, chases, faces...of my past. 
Who's changing, is it me or is it you?

It's like unwrapping a gift on your birthday that you pretend to love just to satisfy your relatives, and maybe even yourself. You say ( Read more... )

I honestly couldn't come up with anything more than the three bullets I have listed. 

• My guilty pleasure is watching the Christian channel. 
• Unless I am stimulated, It all seems fake. 
• And I think this year I want to redefine myself. 

I think I lost my soul before I wanted it to exist. Go figure. And right when I wanted to tap into it... 
Alisa. 

I've got to set a new list of goals for this year ( Read more... )