i want a boy for myself. one that i can talk to about anything. one that will see me for who i am and nothing else. one who will see ME in any physical state. one that i can love and he will love me back. one who will care about me. one who will take care of me and not just the other way around. i always take care of everyone else, i am always the ( Read more... )

i wear a mask. i only show emotions i choose to show, the ones i want people to see. the emotions on the surface are all a show. only those few who truly know me can see through that mask, the facade. the real me.

eh. many people were saying how much fun senior prom was. i don't mean to put a damper on things, but i think i had much more fun at junior prom. or wait, maybe i'm confusing those memories with ones from senior banquet? either way, i guess senior prom let me down. sure i had fun dancing with the fools i call my friends (lol- i mean that in an ( Read more... )

i'm not going to oneonta's open house anymore. it starts the morning after Superthon. i'd have to go there the night before. thanks, but i don't want to miss Superthon. Sarah (porfert) said the same thing. she isn't going either anymore to the open house. haha. i think i'm pretty much decided on going to oneonta. along with the rest of kings park. ( Read more... )

oy. i hate being sick. especially on valentine's day. i had wanted to go to school. but nooo, my stomach just HAD to be upset and throw up its contents. THREE times until there was nothing left in it. i hope mr. b. is extremely pleased- i went to school for just his class to take the hamlet test. ugh. i can't eat. i ate one piece of bread this ( Read more... )

so i've never mentioned that my cousin Nicky is now going out with this new girl who when i first met her looked familiar, but i couldn't place where i knew her from. well, i found out later on that time when we met that she went to our junior banquet last year with the guy i like. yep yep. i knew i recognized her. there's not many natural redheads ( Read more... )

woo hoo! I have scheduled my road test at last!!! it is on march 18, 2005 at 1:00 pm. yeah baby! I will be driving! vvroooom- vvrrooooooom!!! lol (wishful thinking) aren't we the optimist? hehe yep yep. wait til I tell my parents I scheduled it. they're at a movie at the moment. I did it all by myself. I am in-dependent. haha. I just can't wait to ( Read more... )

oh boy. i can't wait to go to college. no more parents telling you to do things or that you can't do things. ugh. i am perfectly independent thank you very much. my dad is so fucking impatient. my mother guilts me. i hate this. i can't wait to leave. i can't wait. maybe then i'll be free. just hold on til college...

ugh. parents suck. no, wait, revise that- MY parents suck. rachel and michelle- you both heard about the insane argument i had with them today. them and their stupid family obligations! i have too many of them! i think they just like to use them as excuses to control my life. not to mention ruining my friends' plans while they're at it. they can be ( Read more... )

ugh. this sucks. it's the end of summer and i'm sick. i went to the doctor today because i've been coughing and stuff and had to get x-rays taken because i couldn't take a deep breath. it just so happens that i have walking pneumonia. (the walking part just means i don't have a high fever.) oy vey. great, just great. this is not how i planned to ( Read more... )