Rik pissed me off last night. he went out and left me home alone after work, he said he'd call me after work, just to say "hi" and at 1:30 am I finally texted him thinking he got drunk and had passed out after getting home late. NO, he was still there drinking wide awake. No, call, no text to say "i'm thinking of you wish you could have come." just ( Read more... )

 I don't think I can do this. It's getting to me and it's only week 2. I have 2 german classes with no english. we're talking 3400 classes, german lit and business, these would be hard hevey classes in english. the reading for each class takes 3hours ( Read more... )

 
yesterday I was sitting at the cafe studying when this guy did something I wish happened more in this culture. he came over and asked to sit at the same table with me. However, because it is not apart of our culture to do this I know that this guy's motives have something to do with I'm a cute girl. whatever, I was fine so he sat down and we ( Read more... )

 everytime i try to comfort myself I just work myself up into a realy rage ( Read more... )

Nothing is safe!

left my journal out last night, confedantly because no one ever reads a journal this is not theirs and people are always over cautous about such could be private things.
and my mother read it. an entry out my glorious fuck life with the love of my life. No big deal right?
not my mother, she isn't suppose to know for sure that I have a ( Read more... )

 Just got fineshed with school yesterday and metally checked out about 2 hours before.  I'm off to Texas until saturday night, so don't expect anything from me. not that any of you ever do.  I finally get to do some summer relaxing until 3 this afternoon ( Read more... )

 I love getting things done, I just hate that I have to do them all at once.  Where does the time go ( Read more... )

 I had a really bad nightmare last night, I won't go into details cause it's still a little close to the surface, but I woke up crying full wailing and couldn't stop ( Read more... )

 
At the end of days, at the end of time
When the Sun burns out will any of this matter?
Who will be there to remember who we were?
Who will be there to know that any of this had meaning for us?

And in retrospect I'll say we've done no wrong
Who are we to judge what's right and what has purpose for us?
With designs upon ourselves to do no wrong
Running ( Read more... )

so busy this month there isn't even time to go over it with people. I block my time and give myself a todo list every day, I live and die by the list ( Read more... )