wish I had unlimeted funds and stuff didn't cost so much, but this is my wish list of things I wish I could have/do ( Read more... )

the muse exploded on me today, there I was waiting outside my class room waiting for the suffering to begin, when  it all came at me.  it was a big cloud and blur at first then it started becoming clearer and I got 2 new poems 2 more pages in my story and read 2 articles on isums and understood them.  and I still feel like it's still coming but I ( Read more... )

 I'm Irish and German my last name is Jaeger I'm suppose to drink, right ( Read more... )

 I can't stand it anymore. I've been making an ass out of myself for a while now, but last night was the final straw for me.  I threw up over everything, Rik's car, myself, and on a week night. there is nothing but shame about this whole thing and no one to blame but myself.  that seems to be the pattern, good day, great evening ruined by me ( Read more... )

London.
My Prof. this summer let it slip that there is a study program for students to go play in the UK for 12 weeks and call it school.  So, I applied. And I can go to London for a cedit and see what there is to see.  I was set to do it, but I went and looked at my school load, and going to London would accually get in the way of school and it's ( Read more... )

 Last night something tragic and wonderful happend.  The tragic isn't that big a deal but that is part of the wonderful.  I ate pork yesterday, just a bite and I was really hungry :( and at the club just went all numb and teary eyed and other not niceness which is why I"m not supposed to eat meat in the first place.  It sucks cause you feel all ( Read more... )

 I admit it, I take things a little personally, I over think things, I'm easily hurt in some situations. Maybe if I was like everyone else, Maybe if I didn't think so much, maybe I could believe as easily that a change of politics could make it all better,  Maybe if I didn't pay attention and just let the Bigger Better Men take care of me, I'd feel ( Read more... )

 I just wanted to post that the situation I posted last is a true story that happened but not to me,  both people in the story are my friends and I'm disappointed that this happened.  so if you or anyone you know needs a place to live i'd really like it if you talked to me/ my buddie that was left high and dry ( Read more... )

Here's the senerio ( Read more... )

 So, this is life? My life has never been perfect but even the crappy bits have been fun. I have smiled in when I wanted to die. So, what happened?  Nothing happened, most of you know why I don't eat meat well, yesterday I was just depressed, not nearlly like I used to be when chicken was in the picture but still, I started self medicating. So what ( Read more... )