So its my birthday and the weird thing is i just dont care, i feel indifferent about the day and it has no meaning for the first time. I'm 19 whats the point? who cares? i know i dont ( Read more... )

Lay me Down and disect my mind ( Read more... )

My misery has overcome me like darkness on a fallen star. I glance around and see stability has no meaning or place in my mind. I see a smile turned upside down, washed away by the tide full of the waves of change. I yell out and no one hears as the exigence doesnt seem to be there. Did our friendship even matter? or was it a mask you put on ( Read more... )

So ive had alot of time to think about stuff, and i realize what i want in my life. I want to be able to be able to hang out with john and Sean everyday. I want to be able to kiss Cassie whenever i want to, brush her hair out of her face, make her smile when shes down, give her a hug just because i can. I want to be able to play my guitar ( Read more... )

How much depression can one person take? I mean, isnt there a point where you just have to snap? I'm afraid i'm going to find that point ever to soon. Why do things have to be the way they are, can we not choose to change it? isnt that something we should be capable of ( Read more... )

wow, so its 9:11 right now and i havent slept in two days....papers, papers, paper. Thats not what this is about. I found something out today that i'm not sure how to react. i'm so "stomach jumpy, dizzy, taken aback" i dont even know what to think. its like i just got punched in the stomach and i dont even know what hit me. I need to go and ( Read more... )

Have you ever been so tired of something, but you just cant get away from it. Thats how i feel right now about this school. I wish that all the fucking drama would go away. This school in entirity is one big soap opera, and to not get tangeled in the web of drama, you have to walk over thousands of egg shells. I want to go back to my days in ( Read more... )

Ive been working on my cassies song so much. Ive gotten the first half of the music written and its going pretty well. I have lyrics for the first quarter of it, but i don tknow what i want for a chours. If you didnt know, it is extreamyl hard to write a song. Espically one for the girl you love. Its huge pressure. She is going to be ( Read more... )

Well, where to start, its been so long since i wrote in one of these. I used to write in my other one all the time, but that kinda changed after i went off to basic. For all of you who read this, you wont really know whats going on, this is my place to expand and release my full and crazy mind ( Read more... )