only in  dreams ( Read more... )

 i had a dream last night ( Read more... )

vacation. sanity. hooray!

12 days out of the house,
i love and will miss chels who is in china, with the almond eye'd freaks, :)
I LOVE MY ROOMIE
things will be looking up soon, i can feel it.

it will probably be another 9 weeks before i update again,
ciao

cor

these live journal updates are so completly random, but i felt one was needed now, so here i go ( Read more... )

my family is in san francisco.
my heart is in san diego.

new roads form on this drive to LIFE. there is a split uphead...which road do i take?
do i grow up?
or do i stay...and wait for something new to come along?

i wish life could be like the movie garden state.

it seems as though i have found myself in a pit of fury, one that i have spun deeply out of control to the point where  there is this deep pit...in which i am stuck in ( Read more... )

i am nuts.
you see, i am in love with a boy...a boy who was one of my best friends. long story short about the past, the present...i recently told him how i felt, he was "flattered" but needed time cause he had just gotten out of a two year relationship. he is leaving soon for life (leaving sd that is) and i have not talked to him since i have told ( Read more... )

i am a burn out.

fuk you dude.

i just want to FUCKING disappear.

i give up. i have lost faith in so many aspects of life all i feel is guilt and angst. fuck this. 
i just wish i had the balls.
but i dont.
and thus, i fail.

i wont talk about my rollercoaster of a life but ill tell you this, you always have wonderful friends to fall back on, especially ones i can call at 10 o clock at night and come to your rescue. these 3 days have been difficult but something to look forward too is my new house in the summer:


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