sometimes it scares me that i fell so lost. and so udderly out of control of my life.
times like right now. especially right now.

i think the reason i dont post more is because i dont have anything to say. and that. well that makes me sad.

i must have written this a thousand times. and i screamed it out to you; screamed until the world collapsed. but i saw you with akward glances . and you saw me. everything i ever thought i could, everything ive ever wanted to be. apologies bled from me. apologies to you, to myself. in tongues ive never heard, so sharp they moved through what ive ( Read more... )

id hate to think i wasted this.

everything is so diluted. and everyones so distant.

i was so depressed. i just threw up.
and that made it better.

yeah. i dont know what i was looking for.

fuck, i am such a mess right now. it sucks. like i wish i was able to put together the syllables and explain it, but i cant ive tried. i wish i knew who i was , and how i felt

sumerrrrrr.
im so excited. and im glad schools out. im so sick of it. im sick of being and sick of all the people.
even still, ihope i can stay and graduate there. it wouldnt be the same if i didnt get to be with my friends..to get to see you.

im sorry. i didnt mean to put this on you.

i find it kind of funny. i find it kind of sad.
the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had.

lately. things hav just been hazy. ive been hazy.

kahdhf. i hate this.

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.. as close as i could get to words.