noob-aborting and scared

[noisestatic]

hello, this is my 1st time posting in LJ, so i hope i've done everything right. sorry if this is long

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[tainted_water]

hunny, dont be scared. I know this is a tough thing to go through, but you just have to stay strong. at least you have one person (your boyfriend) supporting you, one is better than none remember. and we are all here for you.

I dont really have many words of comfort or support, all I can say is stay strong keep your head held high and know that you are not evil or a sinner becuase some church people say you are. If God is 'all forgiving' like they say 'he' is then 'he' would forgive you. this doesnt make much sense I know...and I'm sorry..

If you need to talk you can email me if you like or add me to msn if you have it:
hidingunderarock@hotmail.com
yahoo: xixlovexlampx

take care beautiful and good luck.

[cailin_t]

you will NEVER be alone with the male doctor in the room, so don't worry about that much at least. it will be you, him, a nurse, and probably also whomever is administering the sedative/anesthesia/whatever. surgical is also over very quickly.. you are honestly in and out of the actual procedure in about 5 minutes. you'll be okay - you CAN get through this. i was so upset that i actually walked out of my first attempt to have an abortion (i am similarly hypo-manic depressive).. the stress was so much to handle, even though my husband was there with me.

but you've said it yourself - you are making the choice that is right for you right now. there is no guilt in that decision.. you know what the thing to do now is and you're doing it. you're taking responsibility, you're fixing the situation - you're brave and strong and you will be okay, and we are ALWAYS here to talk to if you need any support in the future.

let us know how it goes. good luck!!! *hug*

cailin

[themaskedvixen]

sounds like you are really nervous. Just take a deep breath. I haven't had my abortion yet, so I can completely understand the nervousness...Don't let the catholic teaching (I was raised incredibly strict catholic so I know EXACTLY where you are coming from) effect you. It's hard to push past but if this is honestly what you think is for the best then go for it. You'll be okay. There is no guilt in this at all. I agree with everything cailin_t said.

Good luck tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you.

[puckish]

Abortion aside, it sounds like you could benefit from some counseling or therapy. Please, please consider calling someone to talk about all of these issues -- the sexual assaults, the pregnancy, your relationships with your boyfriend and your family. You will feel so much better about everything. If you like, the clinic can refer you to good, pro-choice therapists who will respect you and won't judge you.

Best of luck -- I will be thinking of you.

done and dizzy

[noisestatic]

thanks all for your support and advice!
well, the procedure is over. i am still woozy from the medicine and quite crampy. it was a bit painful, but i've felt worse. the noises and cold are the worst part. i was so scared i couldn't stop shaking. the nurses were super nice, tho i am not so sure about the doctors bedside manner. he kept cursing and stuff, which freaked me out. who wants to hear "f**k, blah blah blah, sh*t, where's blah blah at, etc)...but whatever. it's over and i'm sore and woozy...but overall, i'm proud that i made it and i am on the road to healing.
i def want to go to counceling, but i am not sure where to go w/o any insurance or $$$. anyone kno of free counceling/support services (besides this great forum).
thanks again for the support ladies, and anyone here who hasn't undergone the procedure yet, it's not as bad as you may think, so go with peace in your hearts. :)

Re: done and dizzy

[themaskedvixen]

you might want to post this comment as an entry....I'm sure people could help with more responses