-- Name: Joslyn Foley ( Read more... )

For like 15 minutes last night, I was in heaven.

Gone is the good mood, the tons of energy, and the reason for getting up in the morning. OK maybe I wouldn't go that far, but these mood swings suck.

At this rate I think that I will be void of all human emotions within a year. I think that I'm going into one of my manic states, I can hardly manage to feel a twinge of annoyance at things that used to make me furious. Now that I'm off my medication, I can feel myself shifting into auto pilot. The fact that I don't really care about anything ( Read more... )

I got a ton of shit done today. Very proud of myself, finished all homework except chemistry! WOOHOO! I also went to see my calc professor and begged him to let me make up the test that I slept through on Thursday, its going to be twice as long, twice as hard, and I have to take it on SATURDAY. Ouch. He also gave me an hour and a half lecture on ( Read more... )

Sometimes I make myself sick, but sometimes you do it too,.

Practices in self denial, remember to always round up, and nothing counts as nothing.

I saw my friend Chuck today
He isn't really my friend because he is scared of me, but I know him
Chuck walks around with his hands in front of him like he is holding a steering wheel
he pretends to shift into gears when he changes speeds,
he does the hand movement and everything
He likes to make race car noises
I think that Chuck is awesome

I can't believe that, I've never felt such a need to draw blood. Good thing he isn't here. Fuck him. Why is it that the people you really need are always around, except when you need them the most?

"I let out a deep breath and steel myself. I know that I have to do it all in one shot, before I can feel it. I bend down and inhale sharply, throwing my head back on the way up. The burning is instantaneous, and two tears fall down my face as I lay back and wait for the calm to overtake me."

Thats deep shit.