You let me down tonight ( Read more... )

I've decided to blog again.

We'll see how long it lasts this time.

I'm so confused, and so frightened.  I'm afraid that I'm doing something wrong.  In fact I know I'm doing something wrong: I'm hiding something from my parents, which I have never really done before.  It makes me feel sick, but the alternative is akin to hell in my mind.  Living ( Read more... )

You know, I've heard this all a millions times before, but I know how much you want to say it again - you hate the idea of talking to yourself, but oh how you love the sound of your voice.  So I'll sit here, smile, nod my head, while we have a fascinating, one-way conversation.  I know I'll never fit a word in edgewise, so I won't even try.  Maybe ( Read more... )

Oh Lord, help.

Musi and I had a little talk while volunteering at an amusement park fundraiser last week.

"I love you, whether you really know it or not.  I think you do, though," he said.
"I think I do.  I love you, too."

This shy declaration was made not on the ferris wheel, or walking hand in hand through the beautifully-lit park paths.  It was made ( Read more... )

My father is home and has me in a foul mood.  I don't feel like writing anything interesting at the moment, just random and potentially disturbing thoughts and comments that most likely no one but I will really understand.

I finally figured out that Ollie was never actually fond of me, he just wanted to get laid.  (Welcome to the real world, ( Read more... )

I'm sure you've heard that people are afraid of the unknown. That's why children are afraid of the dark, sailors afraid of uncharted waters, new employees afraid of their first day at work. I think that's why I'm afraid of love ( Read more... )

Have you ever just sat down and wondered for hours what you were going to do with your life? I think most people do. I have. I still haven't figured it out. There are so many choices, so many things that the world has to offer, and hopefully I have many things to offer the world as well. The hard part is know what I have, what I could have, what I ( Read more... )