Eh I am a myspace user now. But it is ok. I like it more than here. Although there is still blurty so I guess that I can make an effort to post in here every once in a while ( Read more... )

I am so fucked up right now!
I am falling again
I want him so bad
I cant tell him that I do because why?
Because i dont want to get regected
I dont want to get hurt
I have never felt the way that I do for him for any one else
I want him to love me
to feel me
to make me happy
Happy is something is that I am not
SOME ONE PLEASE MAKE HIM LOVE ME

Today I had a date
not good not bad
it wasnt really a date
and whom it was with is completely irrelavant (NOT ROBERT)
but it wasnt really a date
it was sitting in a basement with other people starring at nothing
I did how ever buy a new underwear and bra
I HATE MIND GAMES
the end

God damn vu girls.... they steal my money and leave me all hot and bothered this is why I hate being a guy....*checks pants* Oh wait I am not :(

Ok basically
I messed around with Derek
he is a fucking douche
next.... aydan has 2 teeth and is getting ready too walk! He is so big
I am getting along with red eye people
all I do any more is work and on the reare occasion that I get out I go to city club
but this is only to see pretty girls
I am going to CA today for a family reunion

mind games
jesus christ
just tell me what the fuck is wrong....

I often tell myself
That we could be more than just friends
I know you think that if we move to soon
It would all end
I live in misery when you're not around
And I won't be satisfied 'till we're taking those vows
There'll be some lovemaking, heartbreaking, soul shaking
Oh, lovemaking, heartbreaking, soul shaking love

Running in and out my life has got me ( Read more... )

I like him allot ( Read more... )

Well Derek is leaving ( Read more... )

My mind is still worn from last night, here lies something between intoxication and sobriety. I like the intoxicated aspect much better than what I do the sober. I am trying to pace my steps. I am trying to think positive.

They all leave me

I have been thinking allot lately, about everything. I hate not being intoxicated any more, it is the worst ( Read more... )