:D yay for rocky tomorrow!

please oh please oh please be fun tomorrow ....

Brandon Miles20 (10:35:23 AM): you want to know the funy part
Brandon Miles20 (10:35:25 AM): not at all
shirtsXnXgloves (10:35:32 AM): what
Brandon Miles20 (10:35:52 AM): im not bothered by you
Brandon Miles20 (10:36:00 AM): i can't explain it
Brandon Miles20 (10:36:12 AM): but im not bothered about you and your ex
Brandon Miles20 (10:36:24 AM): i ( Read more... )

i made johnny a cd. i have a feeling it won't mean anything to him even though it meant something to me. i have a feeling im wasting my time with him holding on. why oh why oh why. ahhhh! i have a feeling wednesday isnt happening. maybe it would if he really wanted to see me. i spent some time with him last night and i never ended up looking at liz ( Read more... )

soooo. This week is hopefully going as follows ( Read more... )

also, i asked johnny if he'd spend the night with me but he is in NH and won't be back until late. i don't know if he went down with friends or in his own car or what. i think he went down there for a Cambiata show. he said he wished he could, but...wont be back til late. i said okay, but if he changed his mind, i dont mind how late he comes ( Read more... )

so i was supposed to completely move today but my bed didnt fit in the back of my mom's roommate's truck, so i have to take it up tomorrow. we were going to rent a u-hal but amy is using jeremiah's truck to bring it up there for me. yay! i still have enough crap i think, after at least a few trips up to my mom's house already, to make two more ( Read more... )

ugh. im moving to my mom's tomorrow. i have too much shit and i dont know what i'm going to do with my damn couch. i want to keep it but i have no where to put it. i want to move with and in with johnny. he's moving into his brother's place instead of his friends which he was originally going to do. that kind of makes me a bit at ease. i dont know ( Read more... )

uuuuuuuuuugggggghh. i feel so bad. i don't know what i was thinking. brandon messages and texts me more than i want. he seems so excited and my heart isn't in it. even though i'm not technically in a relationship with johnny. i am. i want to be. even though there isnt a label and i can't tell what will happen between us, my heart belongs to him. i ( Read more... )

so i had a lovely evening. i got most of my stuff back from johnny. all but my cd that he borrowed. i remembered it right before i left but i didn't say anything on purpose. i guess i kind of wanted something of mine there with him . i know it's silly but it makes me feel close still. and man do periods suck. and so do i. haha. i felt so anxious ( Read more... )

breath in deeply ( Read more... )