I'm doing an excellent job at pretending I'm happy today. I didn't realize it, until I found tears in my eyes, quickly wiped them away..and I was perfectly fine...and about 4 seconds after the door shut when Rachel left the room, just started bawling..and when I heard her talking to someone on her way back, I was able to stop myself. But I have ( Read more... )

I don't know why I answer the phone. I really don't. I told him not to contact me. And yet he does. And why do I talk to him knowing it will make me feel bad that he's hurting? I don't know..because I have 45 minutes and 50 seconds of love that doesn't allow me to avoid people? I made sure to stand up for myself on the phone and not give in, and I ( Read more... )

Wow..it's Tuesday already. I definitely missed out on a lot of time. I have tiny pieces of a couple nights for only a few minutes each, but I just remember being able to barely move. However, it looks like things went just fine and that things got done, and hey, today is a therapy day so I can hopefully find out from Sally if she knows if something ( Read more... )

Nobody writes in the paper journal like they are supposed to, but sure enough, Lisa will come on here..*sigh* Okay, I get it ( Read more... )

Things are most definitely falling apart for us. Many of the little ones have blended and our number has decreased significantly. I thought sleep was more important for us than classes today and now she is pissed. However, I know more than she does and I have my reasons. I am proud of her, for her progress on the inside and out. I know I am not ( Read more... )

I went to all my classes today. And I feel good. I almost had a hard time staying awake in Christian Theology but then I mentally kicked myself and it was all good. My room is still perfectly clean, including my closet and life is alright. All Orange City apartments have been eliminated now so I will end up in Alton, and everything is filled out ( Read more... )

why does every alter have to be against each other? Terri sat on Pauls lap. And according to others, she was quite a flirt. And someone said that they looked like they were having a good time and everyone thought it was me. I think Dan knew it wasn't, but I think ..well, maybe they did know it was Terri. If Paul knew though, then I would think he ( Read more... )

I don't get it. I don't understand it. And I never will. History has never been my thing. I'm struggling with my paper. It's all crap and it's not long enough. So I'm watching the movies over and over again and I get nothin. I have to compare the natural and social environments with relation to science between the two movies, Master and Commander ( Read more... )

Completely missed every single one of my classes today (well yesterday). Although my alarm was set for 7 am, I definitely woke up at 5:02 PM. That's crazy. And I was upset because I just can't do that anymore. It feels like I'm not good enough to be at college, and I want to be at my classes. Being a good student. So I think my guilt from that ( ( Read more... )

What would I do without friends?
Seriously..I love them. All y'all. *giggles cause I just said ya'll*

I am going to go shower and then sleep for an hour. That'll be fun.
Dissecting the rat in my first class will be better.