it's been so hard since chad came back from brazil and said he found someone else. apparently he thinks brazilian women are different then american women, when infact wherever you go all women are the same. some men just don't understand women at all. it's so hard because he told me a week ago that he loved me and he wanted me, but now a week later ( Read more... )

you know, another thing, i'm 26 now. i don't need to be putting up with people's bullshit ( Read more... )

now that snugglekitty is gone, it's hard to be happy. i know i fucked up but i don't think i deserve all this, since i've tried to do everything i was asked of to make amends. he's in brazil having the time of his life. i'm here feeling miserable. not fair. you shouldn't hold onto someone's heart and tell them that things can work out, when you ( Read more... )

i keep having this dream that i wake up next to him wrapped in a big fluffy white comforter, and he's got his bit in his mouth. and i say "hey, wake up. your grinding your teeth again." it's really upsetting sometimes.

You spurn my natural emotions ( Read more... )

so i'm moving back to orlando for a little while. my father is sick. he's in the hospital again, problems with his heart. i'll be back with my family. i don't know what to say right now about it. about everything. i don't feel like i'm ever going to be the same person again. not after today. i didn't think it was possible, but a part of me has died ( Read more... )

ok. i'm moving onto greater things now. i'm no longer using livejournal. i've become better than his. i'm transending into "intelligent-asshole" status as of this day, and that makes me better than spending my nights updating my livejournal. this is the day that my destiny became clear ( Read more... )

Randy Orton is our next great hero of wrestling. I'm telling you, he's gonna be long live. He's got good technical background and a good face, but when he gets really good at promos and work on his character, he's gonna blow up. Right now he kinda sucks, but after to night I really belive it's gonna happen and really fast ( Read more... )

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"if i was invisible then i could just watch you in your room
if i was invincible i'd make you mine tonight
if hearts were unbreakable then i cvould just tell you where i stand
i would be the smartest man
if i was invisible"

dude that is the scariest shit i have ever heard. have you actually LISTENED to Clay Aikens "Invisible"?