Alone and watching the tide roll by ( Read more... )

why is everything so stagnant like im going nowhere like im useless as a lump on a log cant get into school work cant get into anything im just ehhhh i dunno i need a day to just go out have fun and i still miss being with someone it sux not having someone oy

ok so yesterday wound up rounding out to be pretty ok a girl who ment alot to me showed back up and things werent wierd when we talked while me and chelle were together nope everything was back to the way it was before chele entered the picture felt so bad that i actually tried not to talk to her cause chelle asked me not to but we talked pretty ( Read more... )

i think i blacked out cause i dont remeber being single all the sudden...not really, just feels that way emotionally, just been starting to really feel the effects of a certain event lately i was physically and emotionally ass kicked when it happened and just starting to come around but i dunno trying not to let it get to me trying to find out ( Read more... )

so this past weekend i went into philly got to hang out with jim we went to a show in fairless hills i new i missed the guys but god dam i didnt realize how much and i thought it was alot. Apparently they do talk about me when im not around jim was introducing me o peeps and they were like oh this is krum and one of the girls even said so i hear ( Read more... )

I had a dream that I could fly ( Read more... )

so im now officially trying to get over amanda asked her yesterday if i should she said prolly cause her and brian are prolly gonna start dating so im back to square one i still like jess a lil bit and am still attracted to susan i dunno what to do i dunno if i heard things right or not but i think susan may be single jess is like with 3 or 4 ( Read more... )

so apparently my new years eve was pretty shitty after hangin out wih friends but for some odd strange reason i was happy new years day still have a thing for amanda and am still talking to her still friends but want more but im happy to just be a friend talked to her this morning shes not feeling good offered her to come here and id take care of ( Read more... )

so paranoia yea thats what i wanted it to be for fear of what i really was and those that know me know how my gut feelings are and that paranoia was really a gut feeling and i knew it didnt want to believe it didnt want to be alone for new years eve seems im reverting to being 17 again my yearly ritual of being depressed on new years has picked up ( Read more... )

paranoid once again reasonlessly worrying things wont work with amanda almost to tears but at least i kno i have no reason to worry case either way shell be a friend and thats al thar matters i hope we can hang out tommorow and maybe have some questions answered