so i guess it was about time that i had my heart broken again. i mean it has been awhile. even when alaya told me he cheated on me i didn't feel like this. but then i knew that he and i were over, there is something different about this time. there was no cheating there was just a friendship we let go to far i guess, but it felt right to me, so why ( Read more... )

so since i have recently refound my lj i have decided to use it instead of blogging on myspace. not enough people know me on lj for there to be an issue with what i put on here. anyone who might read it well you all don't matter as far as what i have to say about the goings-ons of o-town ( Read more... )

LJ Interests meme results

1. art:
   art; how i love to be general i guess. art is art is art, what you see is what you get if you like it you like it if you hate it you talk shit, thats all how it works. in the end art is just another thing people try to understand, but it won't hurt you if you misread it.
2. florida:
   what can i say i fell in love in ( Read more... )

by wanting to make my life better, by wanting to spread my metaphorical wings, by wanting to feel secure in what i am doing, i suppose i chose to lose the constant of my life for the past two years. i am not angry, only sad he couldn't understand, because i know i am responsible, i needed to much of something that isn't him. i moved him from top ( Read more... )

its september, its florida, but i can smell fall in the air like i was living around the mountains again. i go outside and shiver, the rain drizzles, fizzles, falls. and i feel that overwhelming feeling that i thought that i wouldn't know living here, but i do know it all to well ( Read more... )

this myspace obsession is sick, school has turned me into some weird nerd that has no clue what is going on. i'm learning softwares, like after effects, which for those who don't know is used all over tv and movies and internet. you see it but you just don't know it. its awesome and so over my head, but i have a hell of a time getting on there and ( Read more... )

hes here. and for some reason i feel overly sensitive and more lonely then i was before he showed up. what does that say about me? what does that say about this whole journey i've been on? i expected so many things and instead i get so many things that i never saw coming. funny how that works.

is it possible you don't really know who you are until you get away from everything that made you the way you are ( Read more... )

what could have been,
what could be,
somethings i may never know outside the squishy walls of my head.

we live in the now
feel from the past
and assume the future
if we didn't assume maybe things wouldn't be so hard

when i woke up disoriented and irritated i walked out on my balcony for the morning ritual and when i did i smelt the most overpowering scent of flowers and i thought roses. the air smelled like roses, lots of roses. it woke up my senses and disoriented me more at the same time. i called rachael out and told her to smell, she turned her nose up ( Read more... )