i haven't felt this way in a long time... it's funny how things in my life build and build and finally the levee breaks. i'm not suicidal when i say this, but i can't keep living like this ( Read more... )

good morning my dear ( Read more... )

as i sit here at javas at mcc, i am listening to the games second lp. i had forgotten how gangster this album was. i still don't have my plates yet for my car. such bullshit, the stupid bannk is taking forever to finalize this shit. blahhhh. so i can't get a parking pass for mcc yet becuz i don't have my own plates. lame! but at least i have ( Read more... )

tonight i played at javas with my band and it totally sucked. i am so upset with how it sounded and how i was feeling it but right from the first song it all went downhill from there. fucking stupid. i just hate life right now. i played like shit and i couldn't hear the rest of the band. so i know it sucked. what the fuck ever. i'm pretty ( Read more... )

good morning lj, and happy easter ( Read more... )

i will update more journal, but i just wanted to let you know that i got a new car today! a 2006 honda civic. his name is Bagheera. pictures soon!

lately i've not been eating much. i'm trying to save my money and of course spending money on food is def one of my major expenditures. i just spent my last dollar on a bagel... it is noon thirty, this is the first thing that i've eaten all day. trying to make my $ last ya know ( Read more... )

i was reading old posts and just remembered that lauren and i started dating on the 13th, and amanda and i started dating on the 13th... and both times my heart was broken. way more the second time... fucking a. haha note to self, no longer start dating a girl on the 13th!

dear lj ( Read more... )

hanging out with ky at colins house, watching mystery science theater 3000 clips... can life get any better? only if there were puppies! and there would have to be A LOT of them ( Read more... )