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[abyssed]

Hey, lj. I know I hardly use you like ever anymore thanks to plurk and tumblr and with plans to switch over to dreamwidth (which I'll make a post for later!) I just needed to get something thats been sitting on me for a while, probably years even. To the best I can anyway, I don't really understand all of it myself.

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[vibri]

[abyssed]

Yeah, it kind of really sucks, since its something that seems simple enough. But thank you! I will do my best and am keeping such goals in mind myself!

[distorted_r]

I went through what you went through in my teens about talking to people online. It was like I thought they were something more then just normal human beings on the other end. Nowadays, I can barely find people who will actually video-chat on skype, (which I honestly prefer, because its more like real life).

As for chats I still do kind of feel the same way you do and I know why. Without seeing the person you can't read their damn body language and expressions and that makes conversations end quickly and then you have to guess when someone is being serious or sarcastic. Its just a real pain in the ass. I know that some people like chat rooms for the sole purpose of not having to speak face to face, but for fucks sake, you can get so much more out of a friendship online through voice chat or video.

I'd be happy to skype with you, since we haven't had much one to one conversations. I still need to know when to log on. lol

[abyssed]

Yeah, sometimes it really feels that way, and then I knock sense back into myself because what else would they be, really? But yes, words can be a lot harder to judge tones and feelings with, all you can do is guess, and hope that you're right. It's kind of scary.

Voice chats can be sort of easier for me to do, video chats can be difficult unless I know the person well enough. I worry I'll look really bored when I'm anything but (that or look really tired, which is more likely). But I'm trying my hardest to break out of this shell, and interact more without pushing myself or anything.

You're more than welcome to add me on skype, I just apologize in advance if you'll have to be the one to contact me first for a bit, it'll be me trying to get comfortable if that makes sense.

[ittoki]

I'm facing a similar problem myself too, and I find myself not knowing what to do either, unfortunately. :( But I want you to know you aren't alone in this! I don't want people to think I'm boring or just a pain to talk to- even if it's the truth, it's something I'd rather not want to hear or feel. At least I don't think anyone wants that. Then comes the comparison with other friends/acquaintances who get along just fine: I end up feeling so bad about it and think there's something wrong with me and -insert all uncomfortable feelings here- etcetc :/

It might be weird of me to suddenly pop in and talk about this when we haven't talked in ages (in which I'm terribly regretful btw!!! ;~;) but again, you aren't alone! I hope time would help our situation get better, so hang in there bby! I'll be trying hard this November too :D ♥

[abyssed]

Oh my god, I pretty much understand you as well, and I know almost exactly where you're coming from too! It feels so bizarre to be so held back from something that is or should be so simple, when almost everyone else you know can do it without breaking a sweat. I definitely get you with the comparing to others though, especially if its involuntary!

But no, It's totally okay for you to appear out of nowhere!! I'm glad to know someone else will be trying hard too, it makes me feel supported. I'm here for you too, so hang in there! <3