blood

respect, for the work i do, for the money i pay.

or a thing sharp slither of metal to glide across my skin. i, for some reason crave that feling when the blood starts running, the raw feeling in your skin when the cuts overlap too much, and every thing gets tender.

people are nothing but a pool of acidic dissappointment.

All I wanted to do was see my mom for mothers day really, i didn't mena for all that to happen. John's tags were expired... so they pulled us over and such... john's been in trouble and had warrants so they arrested him and took him away, and even inpounded our car. I got him back, posted bail and such. do you know what it feels like to show up at ( Read more... )

this is what heart brake feels like ( Read more... )

i love to live, to live and not be afraid to go HOME. that's right Carly has a home, a very humble home, that i'd love every one to come see, and a family, in which functions. Jamie and John, my family, my house is a nice house, a clean house, a house where you feel 'good enough' where nothing bad can get you. i even have a pet cat, inwhich doesn't ( Read more... )

So I stayed the night with Adam last night, went to work this morning, got off at 10:30, came home, some one cleaned my room, planned on doing that in the morning, thankyou for that you guys. and for packing all my stuff for me too, i'll be out as soon as i find some where to go, i need to find an apartment, thinking about moving in with john, i ( Read more... )

Got a new cell phone numbers the same as always, if you didn't have the old number just ask me for it and i'll make sure you get it, i don't feel comfortable posting my phone number on the internet.

but i also lost all of my old phone book, so i don't have ur guys's numbers any more! if you could, tell me again, so i can record it!

Work is kicking my ass, guess it's cause it's my first few days, my feet still hurt from yesterday, all the standing is killing my back, but hey gotta go back here in a few so guess i'll just sucki t up and pop a few tylenol or something ( Read more... )

I went to a compitition today, that's why i wasn't at school. Me and Jamie placed first. We were up against Justin, a good friend of Kyle's, so me and him hung out a bit, he was still nice to me, i liked that, i know if it were Ken, he would have been like "You BITCH! arrggghh!" or something. He said it was okay that me and Kyle worked out, that ( Read more... )

I work at the Ross BP now, i start on Friday at 3. I'm so excited!

So yeah, i so got accepted to the School of Advertising Arts this weekend. It's in kettering, I'm SOOOOO excited about that! I plan to eventually move to Dayton, or kettering to be close to school. Depends on what me and Jamie end up doing, with this whole getting an appartment deal. I can't wait to be in the real world. It's gonna be so rough, ( Read more... )