So, I love him. Still. And I'm worried about someone. But it's okay. Anyway, over dinner at India K'Raja (which I LOVE), I was thinking about all the people I know. Some good, some not, but all changed. I was looking through my yearbooks and thinking....Wondering why I never appreciated what I had when I had it. I had so many friends, and each one ( Read more... )

So...I really like this guy. Yeah, me, the feminist. Is totally crushed over a guy. I swore I'd never let myself trust again, and here I am. Crushed and broken, hurt and rejected. Again. So while all my friends either go to Homecoming or the concert, I'll sit at home. By myself. Maybe with my dog. Oh boy, I'm excited.

So...I don't know if I ever told you guys, but I named my fish Pieronymus Bosch (after the artist, with a touch of piranha) and Agent Orange. They're cool. Cooler than you. And I decided, when I have a daughter someday (since I know I'll have a daughter, that her name will be Alexis Grace. I think that's the prettiest name in the world. So I need a ( Read more... )

I had to put some of these on here. I love how some are freakishly accurate and others are talking about someone else. ;-)

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So I'm about ready to kill someone. And pretty depressed. How did this week start off so well and turn into something so horrible? I had everything together for so long, and was feeling so good. Stress hits, and suddenly I'm a monster again. I hate who I've become, and who I was. So where else is there to go?

Why is everyone else so effing happy? And why is it so freaking hard to find a boyfriend that's not a loser or druggie, and genuinely loves me? It used to be so easy to find people that would support me when I wanted to live without drugs or alcohol; and now I'm odd girl out. I just want someone to love. And someone who loves me. But the latter is

I just effing got a new car!!!!!!!

Wow. I had a really awesome week. More to come. Check the MySpace for some pictures.

So, I was thinking tonight...I used to fall off my bike a lot as a kid. For some reason, I just could never hold it straight. I always shifted weight too much, jerked the handlebars, or used the brakes unevenly. I have millions of scars, each with a story, of my "experiences." And for the same reasons, when I learned to drive, I could never hold ( Read more... )

So, maybe the way I've been living is like trying to drive while looking in the rear-view mirrow...Doesn't work.