I can't stand myself sometimes. I know that everyone of you probably think the same thing... but I can't. I feel and then BURN! I can't love. I can't be loved. I can't be myself.. because who I am will change by the second. How can I love someone so much and have them not love me? How can I be loved so much and not love them? What I want doesn't ( Read more... )

"You are a useless waste of space!" Hmmm.. how much sense does that make? Useless waste. Huh. That's a new one. -Ace

"The selfish part of me dreams of you, kissing you, and loving you. The light side of me has loved you, held you and put you first. But the dark side of me is lusting for you, wanting and needing you. I can't explain my feelings much better than that but I hope that you understand everything I feel for you is true. I have never felt this way before ( Read more... )

I have thought of nothing but that everyday of my life. -Ace (goose)
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Take the ice from my eyes and burry the bags on my shoulders and carry me to a place where I belong and take me away to right my wrongs. I have sinned more than I can count a life with sin is a life without. I cant decide or I wont try. I just keep loving so I wont cry. So take the ice from my eyes and kill me. I cant be completed. Not that anyone ( Read more... )

I don't know what I am doing, or what I'm dealing with. I tried to keep it together but I cant help but think what if. head is spinning and I'm happy but I'm sad. What is love and why does it hurt? I told Jon that Matt and I are together and watched it rip him appart. And I felt sad because he's going to fall off the wagon like its my fault. I know ( Read more... )

There is no way I could explain today with out seeming a tad bit conceded.. so we'll go with I got it. I got what I needed to hear.. but at the same time it put me between a rock and a hard place between what I wanted and what I now want. I'll just have to wing it like I usually do. Hey, if ya want to see my tattoo you check out my user pics. -Ace

So they sold International Paper Co. Jay Mill. It will be on the news tomorrow. My Dad is happy about it... but cautous. He hasn't heard of this company before. Not that you care, but it's just a tid-bit that I caught in the grapevine. Perchased by some finacial investers. Not sure what the company name was, but check out the news... we'll be in ( Read more... )

I have passion to give and so much of it. I must supress it in a way that I don't recal how. It's been awhile since I've had to hold back. Can I really be myself? Or is it time to change? It's me, I know, and I'm okay with that; but not okay enough to do nothing to prevent the enevitable separation. I feel separated. Lost in this dream to only hope ( Read more... )

Say hi Matt. "hi matt." So many things come to mind about this guy and now that he is sitting right here I fear I am at a loss of words. He's a good kisser. " After just being kissed,  I really (he originally wrote rally)(" sorry I like the back roads too much") don't know why she is at a loss of words." Made yesturday seem like nothing now. I feel ( Read more... )