I am still not great at dealing with stress. I find this endlessly frustrating because I want to be able to be normal, or closer to normal. Whenever things get over whelming I still get that drowning feeling of anxiousness.

So many things we avoid saying out loud to each other for fear of the conversation to follow

When is it time to just give up ( Read more... )

The day has come and past, was much quieter then normal. Worked on it even, happy birthday wishes from lots of people. I hope the next year people can heal their hearts. I still have so many issues letting go of everything and growing away from it. Forgiveness and confusion aside, its time to try to move on.

ugh i jus want to go back to a normalness with my sleep times rrr

You can block the world out but it will still be there knocking on your door demanding to be noticed.

My Birthday is coming and I must say Im no where I thought I would be. This Birthday will also be the emptiest in years ive celebrated. It's great how every mile stone birthday i've ever had is usually after a huge falling out with people I talk to. So only year another reminder, nothing last forever and time is always pushing you forward. So try ( Read more... )

He got the apartment, my kitchen stuff, and a piece of my soul. I am fighting hard to move on this time, no more past mistake repeats. Fingers crossed I can make good choices from here on out. I really don't want to loose anymore.

The longer I go without an answer of why the more bitter I become towards him.

Honestly I think I should have been exchanged as a defective product. I don't want to ever fall in love I can't me sure of any of the choices I make ever. I am ridiculous, at the same time a thought keeps nagging in the back of my mind that ive been lied to. I can't trust humanity, that capability has been taken away. So many lies amongst so many ( Read more... )