Well it sure has been a while since I've written in this Journal. I suppose it's because I've moved on to a different one like I normally do but reading one of my friends journals made me want to write in this one again. 
All of the past like seven journals are depressing and basically all about confusion which is understandable considering all the ( Read more... )

I have alot to do in the next couple of weeks but then comes break
I cant wait but I am really going to miss all my friends up here
We are all going to have to hang out and have some good times!
Chirstmas is coming too but it really doesnt feel like it at all
It needs to snow and for once I am actually ready for it to snow...
It felt weird because I ( Read more... )

Stupid

There are only two things I feel like doing right now:
1.) Falling asleep and not waking up for a couple of years
and
2.) Slaming my head against the wall until I can't feel anything anymore.

I really hate how I feel.
I hate the fact that I believe so much when I know I shouldn't.
I wish people couldn't lie to me, I really wish there was ( Read more... )

Well I guess I'm gonna start off with this....

Horoscope for Taurus, November 29th
Part of you wants to hold back. After all, if you do, you'll know what to expect and you'll stay safe, right?
But a teeny little voice is saying 'go for it.' Give yourself permission to dive into something new.

And this basically sums up exactly how today went. It was ( Read more... )

I'm here waiting to go to the mall, I should be studying for my stats test that I have tomorrow morning but I'm not. I tried but I'm def not in the mood for that right now. I'm still sick, big surprise. I talked to a whole bunch of people today and told them about how I've been feeling and someone was like you should should get tested for mono. So ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like dying/sleeping/passing out just so you could forget
Everywhere I turn and almost everything I do reminds me of him
I've been sick and today has been the worst of all
I just want to sleep and never wake up and if I had to wake  
I just want this all to be done and over with but I know that's not the way it works
I've gotten over ( Read more... )

Sometimes things happen, they always seem to happen for a reason. Although we may not know it at the time there's always a significance to it.
All day I've been fighting with myself, my thoughts and it's been horrible. This has been the worst Thanksgiving of my life but after talking to some friends I began to realize a lot.
I was standing in the ( Read more... )

Well today is, I'm not sure what it is. 
I hate feeling this way and I'm trying so hard to make it better.
I keep pushing, trying to get out of this whole I've been thrown
into to but I have no idea how to get out and sometimes it's just
easier to lay there then try. I hate lies. I hate feeling like I've been
nothing to the person I've loved for the ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here and It's like 7:30, there's frost on the ground and I'm sick. I haven't been sick in a while but I knew I was when my whole neck started to hurt and my throat as well. It's a good thing my mom got me a doctor's appointment this morning.
Mom had surgery yesterday and seems to be doing pretty good! We also found out that my Grandma ( Read more... )

         Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
When I opened my eyes this morning I had a feeling that I should have just layed there and stayed there. Getting up was the worst idea. I'm in such a fucked up mood right now. I skipped my first class, but at least I turned my homework in like a good student right? I'm so fucking ( Read more... )