i hate the fact that you're not around when i feel like i need you.

i just want you to reassure me. and tell me to kick some ass. and be interested in what i'm doing.

but you let me down. like always. and what's worse is that i keep coming back for more...

i just don't fucking get you.

i'm really fucking frustrated.

ugh.

POSTING SHIT!!!

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FUCK...i got my nose pierced for the third time...through the same hole..

and it hurts...

third time's a charm, right?

augh! cuddle?

it was brought to my attention today that i haven't updated this crap in a while..

sometimes, i just don't feel like writing down what i'm thinking. although i should. i hold too much inside.

i haven't smoked in 30 days. this is 5 years overdue.

really, i just can't get rid of the lj. but i should. soon...like getting rid of smoking...

i wish that when you came out of the womb, god handed you an envelope that your mother would keep for you until you could read and understand it. and in that envelope would be something you were supposed to do with your life. what you were supposed to do...let's say..in my case, after school. this option would be where you are the happiest, most ( Read more... )

oh my god, i'm so tired. i've been working my ass off on a project, keeping up with regular schoolwork and been taking care of my mother. i think i took my vacation too early in the semester. i can't wait for this to be over. so much to do. spring class schedule is already out. oh my god ( Read more... )

you know what's gay?

caring about someone
matters of the heart
loving someone
missing someone so much, you feel like you're about to explode.

FEELINGS ARE GAY!!!!
stupid.

do i settle for mediocrity?

or am i just comfortable?...

you make me sad. no, i take that back--you make me feel crazy. more manic than anything else. i feel like i can never do anything right when all i ever try to do is make you happy. try to give you space, try to do what you want...or would like ( Read more... )