Comments | acninja: oh how I envy the dead... (dead asleep that is)

acninja

oh how I envy the dead... (dead asleep that is)

Apr 15, 2005 03:56

So its 4 in the morning.. cant sleep again.. got some things on my chest and what better place to get them off ( Read more... )

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ihateyoubecause April 15 2005, 16:10:19 UTC

Mike, this reminds me of our insomnia AIM fests all that time ago. Nobody warned us that we were about to feel in limbo between childhood and adulthood. I felt like it came as such an obvious surprise. That's why I'm taking time off of school after I graduate. I need to come to terms with growing up and feeling so unsure and not really belonging anywhere anymore because you are a different person now. It really gets me too. I miss you a lot. We should try to hang out more over summer, I will have more time. And I still have your pipe.

acninja April 15 2005, 20:16:38 UTC

Wow that makes me feel better.. In a way its comforting to know you feel that way.. I mean you have an obviously bright future.. im just glad I am not the only one thinking like that.. You better not be too successful and move away to some super City and meet super friends.... well I guess you could as long as you come visit... and summer sounds great.

ihateyoubecause April 16 2005, 01:21:48 UTC

super friends? do i get to have powers? no my future is bleak, i'm graduating from college and i'm like oh crap what now. i really have no tangible career plans, it's scary as hell.

acninja April 16 2005, 02:05:11 UTC

of course... isnt that what happends when you move to a big city?... I GOT IT!! WE SHOULD ALL OPEN A GENERAL STORE!!!!

wrapped April 15 2005, 17:45:25 UTC

I think that your daughter will understand,
and I'm sure that the more you see her
the more comfortable you will get.
You'll be a wonderful dad.

acninja April 15 2005, 20:27:53 UTC

Thank you Mikah. That really does mean a lot to me. Oh and by the way if you ever need a ride I would be more than willing to come get you. I mean it. Dont be afraid to ask... well since I dont have a phone you would have to call either Carah or Zach to get a hold of me.

hearyoudrown April 15 2005, 20:34:06 UTC

1.) Im sure you know this, but I feel the same exact way about so many of those things. about feeling out of place, and not being good enough and definately missing that closeness with Janelle, and thinking about being old and reflecting on these days that we're living right now...just be reassured that you aren't alone. And I thik Mikah's right. It will just take a lot of time...but she is your daughter and she will have a mind of her own sooner than later. I loveyou.
2.) what the fuck? I didnt know you up at 4am last night! I thought you were sleeping right next to me. you didnt even mention it this morning. its weird to find out at work that you posted at 4am last night. I thought you were asleep before me!

hearyoudrown April 15 2005, 20:40:26 UTC

ps. you'resuchabeautifulboy.

acninja April 15 2005, 20:42:25 UTC

1) I know... I dont want everyone to think I am depressed or anything... I just cant sleep .. Thank you though.. believe or not I get most of my strength from you.. so .. keep up the good work.. :)

2) hahaha .. me asleep before you... thats a good one... and .. sorry? ....

hearyoudrown April 15 2005, 20:59:14 UTC

I wasn't looking for an an apology silly ninja!
and you HAVE fallen asleep before me....once.
i loOoOve you sOoOooO much.

cola4life April 21 2005, 05:08:29 UTC

Wow, Mike... I sent you that long, icky e-mail, but I should have read this first, I guess. It's just amazing that for as long as I haven't known you, I still "know" you... I hope you get what I mean by that, lol. It just reminds me of how we used to talk about stuff like that sometimes... the days you decided to be nice to me, anyway :-P

I guess all I REALLY wanted to say is that "Everything is ok in the end... if it's not ok, it's not the end." It's a saying I pretty much live by and turns out to be true SO much. Just remember to keep living and loving, before you regret it.