so here i am at 2 sumthing in the morning.Excited that Roze lets me post again fuck i have been thinking about her so bad if she found love i will be happy because for some reason i cant feel love for n e one else since her. I realize i came to the bridge of death because of the cocaine. I scarred alot of people and lost loved ones. I want to ( Read more... )

a new skin has evolved from the shadow that used to be.but i am at war with my inner self because of accidents i made in the past with recent lovers. I miss the first and second love birds in my life i wish to make peace with them but they wont respond. I try to cry(mom says its best)but nothing comes. I could live alone and write mad murals on my ( Read more... )

if i died would anyone hear my last breath...i am sorry rozeigh

here i am in rozes dorm and all that i can focus on is how lucky her boyfriend is.She is amazing,graceful and what the fuck am i doing here. I fell so outta place and so out of her life.So outa money outta life outta here if only i could find the perfect words but they still wouldnt work

i met the most wonderful girl in the world at the saves the day show last week.Shes cute as a button but tuff as nails.we spent mindless strolling times holding hands and stealing cheap sunglasses,smoking cigarette after cigarette and pretending that we were stuck in the 50s.thank u so much for the wonderful time in f-ing san diego georgous.

Aww 20 years of heart break, wild crazy youth lessons and hollywood. My birthday was 2 days ago and damn i feel old jesus. I visited Hollywood both days and ate cake with 2 of the coolest gals i know and had crazy times with my closest friend roze aww teenage years are gone so whats next? moving outta here.ASAp so i need to sell my car and get a ( Read more... )

hmm.I have dye in my hair and it burns like a mutha.Other than that i am well but there are two many fuckin car accidents i have heard of 4 in 2 days everyone is okay but shit man keep eyes on the road people.Look i know how hard it is to look at the rearview mirror to get the lipstick off ur teeth but a car is a deadly weapon if not used properly. ( Read more... )

its time to make enemies. Jon is the name that will cause girls to lose thier breath and guys will cringe at jealously. A new begining and a new start. Fuck stupid trendy girls who ever attempted to crush my heart. Fuck love fuck me wildly. Forgive fred durst for being a homosexual cause gays never hurt anyone. Forgive Rozeigh for giving me heart ( Read more... )

So,I go to my friends bands show DTS and Autumns Kiss. Everything is fine and dandy as DTS played i danced of course and some hard core shit for brains swore he was so cool and mocked me i gave him a fuck u look and danced harder.
HE left after no one laughed.
So DTS finished and the ohh we are so straight edge kids began their dancing to breakdowns.
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well the clouds are over head today.
My only connection to my Roze is the internet and thats not really too fun i wish i could hear her jaw pop the way it does and listen to her clear her throat.
second my Father is hiding his sadness of his grandmother dying,she was going to go sometime as everyone does but he wasn't expecting it yesterday.Apprently ( Read more... )