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Dieing and growing old.
It is so easy to sell your soul. To die and get old in that order. For years I thought that when my professional life was exactly as I wanted it I would start to really live, but it's been the opposite. I make about three times as much money as I ever did before, I love my work and keep my hours to around 30 a week, and yet I have lived less in ( Read more... ) -
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There is only one way to be good and many ways to be bad, says Aristotle.
I'm full on a prisoners last meal.
naked in the living room.
cat a little gray tiger.
slap it, yeah, slap it.
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Remembering
My birthday on a cold wet September afternoon, pre- chess but well into lonely ( Read more... ) -
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My ankle hurts. It is sprained. I have to blow my nose. I slept 11 hours because my ankle is sprained. I really need to blow my nose. brb. I blew it ( Read more... ) -
Distraction
Drunk enough to be a little boy, consternated ( Read more... ) -
New Jersey trip.
Parsippany was bleak and sad, all one way streets and empty suburbs, not a person in sight ( Read more... ) -
Syracuse tourney
I went to the Syracuse open today. This used to be "my" tournament. I won it the first 5 or 6 times I played in it. It is a grueling tournament, with a total of about eight hours of chess playing. I remember back when I was the champ...
I always dressed nice. I focused so completely that literally every thought I had was meditated upon with the ( Read more... ) -
Love/Hate experiment
If you want to feel really alive, you need to hate or you need to love.
I have done some experimenting with both of them. They both work.
Hatred has the virtue of ease. It's like fast food, or bottom shelf gin. It's always there for you. Hatred lights up your brain and gets you off napalm style.
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Bobby
The first official world chess champion was Wilhelm Steinetz, from Austria, who defeated the German Zukertort to win the title in 1886. By the end of his life Steinetz was a raving lunatic, unable to accept that he was no longer world champion. He died penniless and insane, a fate shared by to many champions of the worlds ( Read more... ) -
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Gonna die. Gonna die. Gnnnna! die!
She wore a velvet blue dress that concealed her softness and ape-ish lustliness.
Strwberry kool-aid and cheap vodka.
Bobby Fischers Mom was a jew and his dad was Russian.
Fischer hates jews and russias!
Fischer isn't dead, he only believes in Fischer random death, not ordinary death.
Fischer isn't dead he's ( Read more... )