Every time I think about you I get this knot in my stomach accompanied by a little rush as if I'd just chain-smoked four menthol cigarettes. And the overwhelming amount of "signs" and coincidences never cease to amaze me. The way you talk about a song and then it magically starts playing while my iTunes is set to shuffle; the way every single ( Read more... )

"Being someone who is able to tell any sort of a lie with extreme conviction, the conversations I carried on with my ex oddly disturbed me. I fed him all kids of bullshit, for lack of a better term, and ironically I had no idea why. Normally in my twisted life, it always came down to two suitors I was invariably torn between. Never being one to ( Read more... )

"I didn't have many troubled thoughts concerning him. Although, I'm sure I could find out one way or another, I was somehow convinced he didn't communicate with his ex or any other female in a position to ruin what we had. I could never picture us in a tacky public fight or having unemotional sex. Every time the thought of him came into my mind ( Read more... )

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I tried to make a new blog as a way of a "fresh start", and realized that I am no longer as patient as I once was, or as code-savvy. None of those things really matter, however, it's just that my life has changed incredibly over the past year that I haven't been posting. Being cut off and moving out was hands down the best and most effective ( Read more... )

For the fifteen-millionth time, my life is falling apart. I've stopped eating altogether except maybe a cup of noodles or some bread at my work once in a while. If there is not a beer in my hand within 20 minutes of me waking up, I begin to panic. I feel like I'm a normal person because I have a job which I excel in and because I maintain my ( Read more... )

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My life since moving out of my parents house:


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Found an apartment so as of December 30, 2009 I will no longer live with my parents. I feel like hopping in my cute little cadillac and driving off into the sunset seems easy but I am truly unsure if I am ready to be on my own paying bills and taking care of myself. I guess I am just gunna have to sharpen my decision making skills quickly

"emily i love you, the way u look at me, the way u smile, smell, ur skin, how u kno what i want without me sayin n e thing. ur so sweet and beautiful i need you.. all i need is you to remain sweet and stay positive cuz i know u want us to b happy and i feel the same way. theres no way i describe how sorry i am for doing the things i have when i ( Read more... )