Pulsing, throbbing, aching. Brain pounding against skull in an attempt to break free, an attempt to kill. Disappointed. Excitement all for nothing, left with nothing, there never was anything. Counting numbers. A truth never known, never to be known, never could be figured out. Confusion, anger, hatred - peace. Doesn’t matter, doesn’t matter, doesn ( Read more... )

Here I am, trying to form proper thoughts. The truth is, I don’t really have any proper thoughts. I never do. I can’t seem to bother to think anymore. My brain is too exhausted, my eyes feel too heavy, and my back hurts from having to constantly lean over a desk all day. Summer is so close. I can just barely brush my fingertips along its inviting ( Read more... )

Haven’t ‘blogged’ in a while, and I guess I don’t owe anyone one. Thing is, promised myself I’d at least try to ramble about something for one entry a day (and so far, I’ve missed two entries.) Wasn’t my fault exactly. Friday was the first of May. Not only did I have school, but I also had to come home and get ready for the show I had been waiting ( Read more... )

Wake up, slight ache in my head. Check the clock, too early, roll over. Air conditioner’s buzzing, trying to sleep. Wake up, wake up, wake up. Time for school. Don’t want to go. Never do. Prison. Pull on the uniform, stuff my bag, grab my lunch. Tired. It’s cold. Catch the bus. Walk, walk, walk. School seems empty. I am empty. Locker, computer lab ( Read more... )