so many lost.
i've lost hope and respect.
This is as low as i could be right now. As pathetic as ever. I want to cut that part of my life out.

i'll cry myself to sleep tonight.

travis is sleeping so great no one to talk to. not that theres anything to talk about.

UGH im so fuckin frustrated!!! i want to talk to him!!!

ahh i had a mental breakdown last night.. i wuz fine since wednesday.. then i died. i dont remember how it happened. BUT i miss my baby! .... donnie's my baby.. but! he hissed at me and made me look like i wuz tryin to kill myself cept not cuz it wuz all in the wrong places. but Atreyu wuz my other baby and i miss him alot. why the hell do i OF ALL ( Read more... )

saddening i know.. Atreyu, NOT the band my puppy was given back to the breeder today due to my random ass allergy to shedding dogs now and his uncontrollability that i wouldve worked thru it if i wuznt allergic. BUT its good tho we dont feel bad for him cuz he is with his mom and his sister and they can play and stuff cuz tobey n him played really ( Read more... )

we might give back the puppy. i have welts and bite marks everywhere.. hez teething but since hez a very active breed he grabs u really hard shakes ur arm around and growls. he should be alot better after teething.. but i cant wait 2 months for it to die down.. my arm burns and itches and welts looking like i tried to slit my wrists. and he gets ( Read more... )

poor travis.. visited him thurs - sunday.. pretty sweet.. friday i fell asleep like 6 times cuz i wuz sick and on medicine. i woke up and looked at the door cuz i wuz facing that way and his brother wuz there but i thot it wuz his dad. then imlike O HI and i wuz really confused and out of it so he brother .. wuz liek uh.. but it wuz fun. I love ( Read more... )

so sick. im very very pale, i almost passed out liek 5 million times and im hot and ugh i hate it! i saw a puppy yesterday it wuz really fun to play with! i wuz very excited and beat travis up oops. wow i really need to lay down

i feel like shit.. for many reasons.. one , my nose ,i dont even know, but its like gross either from travs dog or a cold cuz my throat hurts adn i feel like crap cuz my muscles are achy and everything else. So i dont know wut im doin about troy daze cuz i wanna go but im too gross feeling to go on anything cuz lately ive been feeling very sickly ( Read more... )

they better get me a fuckin puppy!. i feel like shit. school can ugh i cant even explain it . so i hurt everywehre every joint 2day and i wuz gonan cry in 5th hr cuz i wuz frustrated. but i held it back till i got in the car and complained to my mom. so that worked? and uh yea basically i need a puppy cuz i would be playing with it right now and be ( Read more... )

im glad some people have a life on sunday..cuz i dont ever. Could be worse. hopefully next weekend will be ok. even tho i dont find any motivation in going to Troy Daze anymore. Suddenly everything this year seems so pointless. I cant wait for the 27th. the Dvd of uh stewey? or family thingy.. comes out . So that weekend will consist of family guy ( Read more... )

so troy high sucks alot. and i do not like it.. nope .. um lets jsut say that they are making it really clear that they dont want me to have a life.. too many quizes in the next week / 2marro.. adn plus a project that i have to do over the weekend i wuz once excited for. so i talked to mike busk cuz hez broken. and its gay that they didnt give him ( Read more... )