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PRIVATE: The safest way to fly is to know how to fall.
She should have been sleeping and she knew it. Her 2AM pacing was wearing out the off-white carpet beneath her bare feet, and her eyes were watering from the lack of sleep. (Which was also, just as everything!else, Mark's fault ( Read more... ) -
PRIVATE: The second-hand unwinds.
A couple of weeks after Derek left, Mark discovered the cardboard box of clocks I had buried deep into the corner of the coat closet in the foyer. When he questioned me about why the walls of the brownstone Derek and I shared were now bare of every mechanical clock, instead covered by lonely nails, chips in paint, and holes, I brushed off his ( Read more... ) -
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EVERYTHING BELOW IF FROM AU SUMMER
I am too lazy to edit each entry. I will sometime in the near future. Promise.
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3AM and I can't sleep. It just quit raining a mere 5 minutes ago, and the room got too quiet to bear. This computer screen is the only source of light in this room, because I had closed to curtains about an hour ago, in hopes the pitch blackness would help me fall asleep. It didn't. After asking Mark if he was awake and getting no response, I ( Read more... ) -
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You can only lie to yourself for so long before you have to swim out of the water, and gasp for air. -
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Writing my feelings down doesn't exactly work when I have no idea what the hell I am feeling. I just cant interpert it ( Read more... ) -
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I cant remember the last time Mark called me Addison.
And I cannot remember the last time I had been called Dr. MontgomeryIt sounds so incomplete, so unfinished ( Read more... ) -
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(OOC: Sorry if there are typos, I'm in a hurry, and I dont have time to proof read! =] )I've been spending a little less time at the hospital this week, leaving as early as I can to drive around and visit a few condos for sale around Seattle. So far I've seen two I liked, one for a reasonable price with an amazing view, but quite far from the ( Read more... ) -
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The hospital day was a little hectic and I am in no mood to bring that home with me.
I wasn't able to fall asleep until somewhere around 2AM last night. After talking to Mark, things sort of got easier, yet grew more difficult.
Although in the back of my head I knew what a slim chance we had at fixing this, I still planned for my marriage to work. ( Read more... ) -
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I always see Derek in the hospital. Walking down the hall, or talking to someone.
He looks happy. Happier than he was a few weeks ago, definately. He's been miserable for so long, and it made me want to go up the walls because, he thinks he's the only one who loved someone else. That he is the only one, who had to make a choice.