Emotions are such a fucked up thing. I honestly don't know what to feel right now. For the last few days, my mind hasn't been able to keep still for more than a few minutes at a time, which is supremely annoying. More recently though its been settling on the negative. I suppose I should have seen this coming, and I was a fool if I ever thought I ( Read more... )

    Has been one of those days which I will remember for literally the rest of my life, until such time as I am struck down by a memory-erasing mental illness ( Read more... )

   Hope is so seriously cruel, it really is ( Read more... )

I just don't know what to think anymore. What to feel. I can't explain what's happening, because every attempt I make to explain or understand it even to myself just fails. Maybe it was my fault, maybe somebody else's, maybe nobody's, maybe everybody's. Maybe I, or somebody else, or nobody or everybody could have seen it coming and/or avoided it. ( Read more... )

I can't put this in words...there are only lyrics. I haven't reached the end of the song yet ( Read more... )

Yay, some good news! Just a quick entry this, as I need to run to bed but I do want to put up a proper one soon, keep delaying ( Read more... )

It's worth saying that if I can make it through this weekend without caffeine I'll be delighted. I think its the best thing I've done in ages, I can't pin my being happier and having more energy down to anything else. There's still a hell of a lot on my mind, but somehow it doesn't seem to bother me as much right now. I'm not sure why. Perhaps ( Read more... )

So much for self improvement. I did sort of give myself a 2 week head start to do bugger all on the matter, but I find myself, two weeks later, really wishing I'd gone further by now. Certainly I don't have a lot of time to sort myself out if I'm really going to stop my endless self destruction ( Read more... )

Last night I was feeling pretty gloomy. I'm much the same tonight ( Read more... )

Thoughts running around in my head again, and not the good kind ( Read more... )