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Do/Don't
Tonight, I am in a middle mood. Indecisiveness. I both feel like I wanna chat or talk to somebody but I also don't wanna put the effort in ( Read more... ) -
Anxiety
Decided to try to work on myself again. Spoke with a counselor today, provided all of the background data, provided current status, all the trauma and all the memories and all of that - and every time I do - I have to recover from the event. And so today I am struggling quite a bit trying to settle everything back down, shove it back in the folder ( Read more... ) -
If there were a you
If there were a you. I would warn you off. Life and everything else would probably be much easier.
I would not always have my choice on how I treat you, or respond to some relatively non-important thing.
If I fell, into the cave of darkness. I don’t know what kind of strength you need. To watch me, to feel for me, but to know that you are not the one ( Read more... ) -
my version of love
*my version of love*
I really like restrooms with stalls so I had stall walls built around my toilet and one or two of my friends wrote this on the stall's wall, "My brain is on fire. Big blue winged crocodile. My brain is on fire. Little red something or other." Little red something or other, makes me think of babies.
I had this dream once where I ( Read more... ) -
Everything But This
It appears in my mind and whatever it is - lurking in there - would rather do everything but this. THIS.
This act of ablation. I used to be so good at it.
But there is nothing I want to tell the world. There is nothing I want to tell me. I already *feel* it in me. Please god, don't make me say it. Not out loud. Not here. Not in black and white.
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It was a Good Day
And that's a really nice thing to be able to say.
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The Affirmative 10
1. I acknowledge what currently is and open my mind and energy to what the universe has to offer ( Read more... ) -
She
It's not simple to say
Most days I don't recognize me
These shoes and this apron
That place and its patrons
Have taken more than I gave 'em
It's not easy to know
I'm not anything like I used to be
Although it's true
I was never attention sweet center
I still remember that girl
She's imperfect but she tries
She is good but she lies
She is hard on herself
She is ( Read more... )