"Today I went to my grandfather's 65th high school reunion. With Oma in the hospital, he didn't want to go alone, so I went. It was interesting - I could see so many similarities between their class of 1938 and ours of 2005. There was this one woman, I swear, she's exactly what Alicia Farrell will be. Opa seems to be alot like me. I mean, not many ( Read more... )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fmnjKpe848YRead more... )

( Read more... )

there's a boy i work with who has refused to speak to me for the past three days. i have replayed every moment in between the time we last worked together as friends and when the stony silence began. i can't think of a single thing i've done, and it scares me deeply that i could offend someone so completely and have no recollection or understanding ( Read more... )

lindsey and i switched rooms, so i live downstairs now. i wasn't wild about the switch, since now i have fewer windows and have to deal with stairs all the time, but i'm beginning to enjoy my new space. it gets really warm with a little ceramic space heater and the bed is comfy. i forgot how much i enjoyed rearranging my room when i was a kid; ( Read more... )

i read a blog that dana reposted, i think it was something hayley wrote; the subject matter being rape and jokes about rape. hayley's message was, essentially, that rape jokes are not funny because they demean the suffering of the survivor and they can trigger flashbacks or overwhelming anxiety for someone who has been attacked. this is interesting ( Read more... )

i was told recently that no one flirts with me or makes any romantic advances because i have widely professed how much i hate to be hit on. this entry addresses my feelings on this issue. i use male pronouns because this is a reflection of what i've experienced more frequently in my life ( Read more... )

heartbreaker ( Read more... )

what upset me so deeply about las vegas was that it made me feel small. curled up in a ball on the floor, shivering under my blankie, cursing the voices making love above me; i felt like a child again, when i could hear my mom and her boyfriend in their room, and i'd be so embarrassed and never felt like i could leave my room. once, i had to go to ( Read more... )

having a very hard time writing; don't want to force it but don't want to forget. i'll come back to this later ( Read more... )