why cant you see me ( Read more... )

so basically i found a new crush hehe ( Read more... )

ok so basically i have a lot that i need to get off my chest tonight ( Read more... )

wow.

here i am.

the place i promised myself i wouldnt be.

law of attraction. everything was falling into place and now look at me. fucking crying @ 2am and shit

so andy. great fantastic love him guy!! we were so close. i gave him my bracelet he gave me his.

i wore his ring.

and then tonight. the phone kept ringing. some girl named "kalisha" ( Read more... )

so i had to write because i have to get somethings off my chest. me and olivia just "made up" if you will call it and yea i still dont feel good about it. she makes me feel bad and not happy about myself but says i make her feel bad about herself ( Read more... )

so today i realized im all alone in this one!

meaning life. my so called best friends

really arent.

and people i dont even know seem to be more reliable.

it kind of hurts but whatever.

i really need a man. so i dont have to hang out with/see losers like anthony!! fuckin asshole.

im all alone!

its times like this when im paralyzed, by myself ( Read more... )

p.s. im A FAT ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

so i havent posted a bulltin in 8 weeks according to this thing and i dont even know what to say i feel like a zombie. im so torn over why i have to be so dumb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh ( Read more... )

argh le lo law ne!!!!!!!!!!!! i have no idea what that says but that is how i need to express my anger....gah i am so TIRED of my weight going up 5 lbs and down 5 lbs every other fuckin day! i go down 2 lbs then up 7~! nasty!!!!!!!!! so i like gorged myself yesterday. (all on healthy food except the dip and chips) but i mean like damn i cant ( Read more... )