I missed her everynight. I have a feeling she misses Jenny. I don't know what happened, but I worry about her support system, who is there to help her understand life? I can't tell her everything is ok, even though I miss her. She shut me away and the people she saw as fake and full of bitter pity that lead to misery. She shut me away, she ( Read more... )

I'm lost

I'm very upset at the moment. I spoke to yaya a few days ago, she was still quiet, but she wasn't mourning. It was kind of strange. I knew she was keeping her guard up but not towards me; it just felt like towards her heart. I heard from someone else that she e-mailed Jennie a long letter knowing there wouldn't be a response. I can't say I ( Read more... )

Like a drawing from a sketch book. She's like a drawing from a sketch book, every detail has a meaning, but the reality of the picture comes alive with time. The picture comes alive more then we can feel our emotions. I've seen her ripped out of the book to be crumbled and tossed to the garbage can today. Someone has torn her, and I feel like I ( Read more... )

My thoughts ( Read more... )

I called her last night, and she was so quiet and far away, I was worried. I kept telling her, whispering to her, let it go. But she's struggling so much through parts I can't understand. She's changed in ways I'm unsure if it's her. The clothes she wears is almost familiar but different. Her smile is rarely shown as well as her tears. She ( Read more... )

I woke up from nine days of sleeping. The doctor said I was in a coma from what my mom said, but why do I have movement, and why do I remember Mariah? Why can I tell my mom she's a fucking bitch? Why can I kiss my boyfriend and feel the exact same as I did before? Why can I stare at the tv screen when Viva la Bam is on and start to feel empty ( Read more... )

Yea, I know it's a weird title, anyways...how do I say it? I HAD SEX WITH TAYLOR KNIGHT! He's got wicked curly brown hair, he's like..I don't know 6'0 and plays guitar, and long hair, and blue eyes,...and ahhh...the bliss. no worries, I used a condom. ;)